Day before first extractions.
Woke up this morning and cried again, adjusting to the news that I am to lose most of my teeth to gum disease. I was only informed of this yesterday so it's early days I guess. I really don't know why i'm so upset because I HATE these teeth, I know i will feel better once its done.
I have no idea what I look like smiling, I mentioned this to my boyfriend last night and he said "neither do I". how awful for him to never have seen me grin at him, I cant wait to do this.
I'm 36 and never had a smile I could be proud of. Crooked horrible ugly ashamed embarrassed smelly.
Anyway, the first teeth are coming out tomorrow, I was going to run around getting second opinions but
I've gone off that idea now. I just want them gone.
I am sitting an exam in the morning so it's probably not the best day to be having teeth pulled but I guess no day will be a good day. The dentist said "wednesday, 10.00am?" i said "this Wednesday?" shock horror, i then started in on the excuses, "I have an exam at 11.00am" he said "4pm?" I said "erm I have my son to fetch from school" these were real reasons but i realised i will always be able to find reasons to put it off if I want, so my mother-in-law is watching my son for me while i take the 4pm appt. I'm now glad he is starting working on them so soon, having to wait weeks will just be torture for me and I probably wouldnt go back if I had to wait weeks.
I'm still in pain and he said there was nothing he could do immediately to relieve this, I'm also glad about that, I'm more likely to go back if its hurting. I just hope the first treatment will go well and encourage me to go all the way. If he butchers me i will back at square one.
He's starting with the back teeth on the left side but I don't know how many he's going to take out or how hes going to do it. I imagine it will be a needle in the mouth, I really should of asked more questions and I plan to take a list with me tomorrow.
I will be without back teeth until he comes to take out the front ones, he is going to fit immediate dentures then. I wish I could fast forward my life and wake up 2 months down the line. I'm assuming it will be all over in 2 months, I have no idea how long it will take in reality.
I'm worried about not being able to speak properly but then I have a speech impediment already due to overcrowded teeth. There are no reasons and no excuses to not have this treatment no matter how many I try to make up for myself. I know this will transform my life and appearance. I'm not waiting for them to drop out before I do anything about it.
just had a look at "dentures a new smile" website, the pictures are amazing, inspiring, i cant wait for this to be over.It was nice to see some younger people on there and know I'm not alone. i'm not sure Im brave enough to post pictures of my ugly teeth (even though I walk around with these monsters in my mouth everyday) but I'm seriously thinking about doing the before and after pictures.
Will update tomorrow, or later tonight, with some nervous ramblings.