I'm In a state of panic!

[Kim]

Thanks hun - I don't know what is happening tomorrow - think it is just a look and I hope so - as not ready for the gook to be put in my mouth without knowing beforehand.

Going to go with the attitude thing tomorrow - not my cup of tea, but not me so will do it - can do loads for others just not for myself

[carol999]

Yes Kim I absolutely know that ,you and I both eh. We both need to develop some attitude for ourselves as well me thinks

[Kim]

Ok - today - well I got my knickers in a right state going back to see Lincoln and Jean again - can't figure out where that is coming from and really don't like it. Got in the car and hubby said - you are alright now tho' - you are used to this aren't you and not getting anything done - seemed surprised somewhat when I said no I wasn't used to it, and was still nervous - got to surgery about ten minutes early - could I go in - no - appointment 1000hrs - got out of car at 0958hrs! Got into waiting room spot on time - Dougie went and 'checked me in'.

A really confident woman walked in - acknowledged reception staff who seemed to know her and just sat down - then who seemed to be her other half strolled in confidently also - how can they do that - I am still so in awe!!!

Jean came and got me - she is so lovely, so down to earth - and I was still (sorry I think this is a bloke saying) 'bricking it'. Went in and Lincoln greeted me with a big hug - I was shaking like a leaf. I was offered the 'normal' chair which I sat in - we had a chat and Lincoln asked if I was ok to sit on the chair - was ok 'cos I knew I would have to, and nowt was going to be done.

There is a part of my mouth that is still tender, and looks 'jelly like'. Told Lincoln and he had a look. Said it hadn't healed as much as he had hoped and that there is a possibility there is still something 'lurking' in there. Best case scenario is that it comes out, worse case scenario, he might have to 'clean' it out - but I will be under sedation if it comes to it.

I have a series of appointments to go to - two lots of impressions, and I will need something to help me get that far, so will be given something to calm me down for both of those - hubby was laughing at me in the waiting room when I touched his arm to let him feel how cold and clammy I was, and all because of NERVES - hate it - I would have been able to start the first stage next Friday, but because hubby has now a different role, and leave is all computerised - he can't get the time off, and the following week he has an appointment re the car crash.

So all my appointments have had to be changed and I don't go back until mid August to start with impressions - am a bit gutted but don't have any other option - I have no-one else who could take me (or that I would really want to if I am honest - Dougie has seen me in many a state, and that is reserved for only him).

So I will literally be 'sucking it and seeing' how it goes.

Now...... forgive me for ever being the pessimist but I am now panicking - Henry, who has been on here, was due to get his dentures - he had a series of appointments made, one lot of impressions taken and I posted saying he would soon be like Bisja and eating his corn on the cob - he has replied saying that he can't get dentures My heart so goes out to him - I know that can happen, but how come they can tell after one lot of impressions.

Maybe one of our pro's will pop on and put me right on that? I look at my mouth and think 'how the hell are any teeth going to stay on with that lot' I am hoping to hell that they do, worst case scenario - I am no worse off than I am now, I will just have to go out there real proper and stuff and face people - OMG - would I be able to do that???

Right - ok - kick up the bum time - that won't happen - that wont happen.

On a final note to today's update - I would really like to say a huge THANK YOU to Lincoln and Jean - it will always be difficult for me to come and see you - the fact that you understand that and offer me help each step of the way - you have no idea how much better that makes me feel - just sorry you have to see me struggle to 'escape' when you let me go - I didn't know whether to push or pull that door - I am so glad if I gave you a little chuckle if you saw me - to bring a smile to someone's face -
priceless

[chickenjen]

Oh Kim, don't feel so badly about not wanting to go to your appointments. It's been almost 4 years of countless appointments for me..........my dentist's reception staff know me so well, we chit-chat like old friends. But do you think I feel ANY better going to the dentist...........NO WAY!!!!!!!
I still get a knot in my stomach, still want to cancel the appointment. We have this phobia and though we may GO to the dentist, it doesn't mean we're casual about going like people who don't have this phobia!!!
My dentist and I have a lot common, strangely enough, we both grew up in the same neighborhood, and he's a genuinely nice person, but if I could find a way to NOT see him and NOT endanger the health of my teeth............ I WOULDN'T SEE HIM!!!!
Hope what I've said makes sense ? and makes you feel better

[Kim]

Thanks for that Jen, and yes it makes perfect sense - I so know where you are coming from.

I think I am going to have to hide my little mirror that magnifies everything so much, because I keep looking at the jelly like piece of my mouth to see if it is getting rid of what it should be, and it is not making a bit of a difference whatsoever!

We are back onto our weekend routine of waiting for the nurse to come for Alison. What with everything else yesterday, we went back to see the nurse, and Alison was really breathless prior to. She looked really washed out also, so I told her she needed to tell the nurse all of this. She was reluctant to, as she said she felt the nurse would think she is turning into a hypochondriac, but I had to explain to her that until all this, her visits to the doctor were very few and far between.

Her appointments are usually for twenty minutes and she was called in at exactly 1.30pm. The next thing I could see the nurse talking to the GP and then the GP went into the nurses room. She was in there for ages, and then she came out, got something from her room and went back to Ali. She left after a bit, and then I sat and waited and waited. Ali was with them both for over half an hour, that did include the dressing being changed, but the doctor did a few other tests, and took urgent bloods to be tested to make sure that there was no clots on her lungs.

About 7pm last night, the GP rang and told Ali, that the tests had come back fine, and that she is anaemic, but that once the iron tablets kicked in, she would be feeling a lot better - I truly hope so for her sake.

[Kim]

Today I am tired and frustrated. Why I hear you ask (or not) well, my pain in the backside son went out to a friends last night to watch the boxing, and didn't return home until 5.30 this morning, when he decided to make noise and wake both me and my hubby up! Couldn't get back to sleep, so tired (and possibly a little grumpy).

Frustrated because my daughter is still unwell We are almost 4 weeks post op, and she is still bleeding, which the nurses seem to have different opinions on and the GP's don't seem to have much of a say on!! I rang the hospital where she had it done and spoke to one of the lovely nurses who dealt with Ali when she was there, he was lovely, but said that she shouldn't still be bleeding, and she should go to A&E.

Alison was adamant that she didn't want to do that, if anything she wanted to see someone at the hospital to check it out, so we didn't go. The nurse was later coming today, and Alison was feeling really physically sick this morning. I just don't know what to do - the nurse that came again today, said she needs to ask to speak to the GP again tomorrow when she has her nurses appointment, but she has done that and we are getting nowhere! I am now thinking I will ring the outpatients department of the hospital, and ask if her 8 week checkup can be brought forward to asap because of the situation - any suggestions would be really helpful.

When I saw Lincoln on Friday and showed him the jelly like piece of gum in my mouth - you could tell that he was really thinking about how to treat it if it doesn't shift itself - he was trying to figure out how to make things better. And I know that whatever happens, it will be sorted properly, and I won't be fobbed off. I just wish I felt like that the the doctors and nurses at the GP surgery, but I just don't, and am worried

So....... to try and cheer Ali up, and to get some food into her, as she is really not eating very much, I am doing her (and mine and Iain's) favourite dinner, roast chook, gammon, lovely roasties and delish veg - scrummy - hopefully that will put a wee smile on her face.

Needless to say, me mouth isn't playing game with regards to whatever is lurking beneath my gum. When I look at it - and no I still haven't ditched the massive magnifying mirror - it is still red and jelly like, and reminds me a bit of those 'aliens' that you used to get the kids in a plastic egg - gross. I am hoping that it will do something secretly and painlessly and of it's own accord before Lincoln has to step in - but if not, he has told me he would sedate me to sort it out because he knows exactly how much of a woos I am

Will keep you posted on that one

[chickenjen]

Still bleeding 4 weeks post-op?? Maybe there's something else causing the amenia that the docs are overlooking ??
If it were my child still feeling like crap, I would insist on her going to the Emergency Department......especially if your own intuition is telling you to do that. I never go against my woman's intuition because it always has served me well!!!
Hope your docs figure it out soon so your daughter can start to feel better!!
Many 's to both of you!!!

[Kim]

Thanks Jen

But she is still not having the A&E thing - she won't get in the car, and I can't physically pick her up and take her there. The nurses she sees every day are saying that it is because of movement that dislodges any clots and so she is bleeding and apparently that to them is a good sign because they say her blood is flowing - just wish it would stay flowing in her body and not out of!

I will phone the hospital where she had it done tomorrow, she is ok with me doing that - problem also is that as she is 19, she is an adult and can and cannot decide what she wants to do Oh for those baby days back

[Sparkles]

Hi Kim,

Sorry not been on for a bit, been away enjoying the good Scottish summer rain.

So just been catching up on your diary and think you did really well at your appointment. It's a shame things are going to be dragged out a bit longer than you hoped but at least you feel confident in Lincoln and Jean so that's really positive.

I hope by next time this bit of your gum has sorted itself out and you can get on with getting these new teeth sorted out.

Sorry to hear your daughter is still not well. I'm keeping my fingers crossed she's on the mend soon. It's just so frustrating when the doc and nurses don't seem to have any answers.

hugs to you and the family,

[carol999]

Yes Kim see if you can get her appointment brought forward. If not put your foot down with your daughter and tell her to do as she is told and take her to A&E.