wow, after years of declining dental health, bad expereinces, panic attacks and shame over my teeth, i am sitting here w/ a beautiful smile, at least on top, where my teeth were the worst.
i got my upper denture on wednesday. for several days before, i had moments of sheer panic/terror. i would literally be talking w/ my husband about anything, what's for dinner, what came in the mail that day, and just burst into tears out of no where. i managed to keep myself calm most of the time. on the day of surgery, i was breathless, teary, just so scared...
the oral surgeon put my IV in, which was not nearly as bad as i thought, then literally, the next thing i knew, they were telling me "you did a great job, it's over!" i guess it's liquid valium, but whatever it was, it worked like a charm for me.
i was really woozy for the rest of that day. i didn't have the guts to look in the mirror until i got home, but when i did, i could not have been more PLEASANTLY surprised! my upper denture looks so beautiful. the way my teeth did 20 years ago. my prosthodontist did an outstanding job -- this is just the immediate denture. the final one should look even better.
i have not had much pain, but the vicoden has surely helped with that. i'm so thrilled w/the way my smile looks, i can even deal with the fact that so far, it's not been too easy to eat. it's been 6 days and i'm up to chewing some mashed banana in my oatmeal, but that's about it. i am confident that it will get better and ii will get used to it.
yes, the denture feels weird in my mouth, but again, i know i will adjust to it with time.
one thing i don't think i'll ever get accustomed to is the way i look w/o the denture in. NO ONE but my dentist, his nurse and me will ever see me w/o my teeth, as long as i have any say in the matter. it's just weird. i will definetly be one of those people who sleep w/ their denture in.
anyway, i feel like this huge, ugly weight has been lifted from me. i wish you guys could see my before and after pictures i took. my son and i were looking at the pics of my teeth taken the day before i went in. i cried -- i can't beleive i've been living like that for years. no wonder ive been depressed.
oh, and for the first time in many, many years, i can eat ice cream w/o searing pain shooting into my brain! all those poor, rotten, pathetic teeth are gone. i can't beleive i did it. i am actually proud of myself, for the first time in a very, very long time.
you guys are a godsend.