Soma
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- Jan 7, 2012
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My dentist has always been ultra understanding of my mental state with this dental stuff. I'm constantly teetering on that line between phobia and obsession. Once I'm convinced I have a dental issue going on, I usually pester him every couple weeks to "check up" on the situation, maybe an updated x-ray will show an abscess that the one 3 weeks ago didn't show. (That's what my brain is saying). I can tell he's just humoring me, allowing me to come in for appointments whenever I call him, granted he is getting paid...but when I get in there he just sorta sighs and says "What's going on today?" I feel like he thinks I'm insane, and I probably am..but it hurts thinking he thinks I'm a bother, even in the slightest form. I told him once that dental issues truly control and ruin my life, he said if dental issues are the worst of my life, then I could have a lot worse of a life. Which is true, but until someone lives in this fear they can never really understand what it does to you.
Anyways, this morning, as soon as their office opened at 7:30 am, I called and begged them to get me in before the Christmas break, even the receptionist sounded exasperated on the phone. I apologized for being a nuisance, and she set up an appointment for me for 10 am tomorrow morning.
From the second I heard her voice, to this moment, until it's over tomorrow - I will feel guilt for setting up this appointment. For inconviencing their staff with my stupid issues. I know they see 100 people a day and I'm like a fleeting 15 minute face in the grand scheme of things, but even on the lowest level to them, both the fear and how I see them view me is huge to me.
I guess I was just wondering if anyone else goes through this every time they set up an unscheduled visit to the dentist?
Anyways, this morning, as soon as their office opened at 7:30 am, I called and begged them to get me in before the Christmas break, even the receptionist sounded exasperated on the phone. I apologized for being a nuisance, and she set up an appointment for me for 10 am tomorrow morning.
From the second I heard her voice, to this moment, until it's over tomorrow - I will feel guilt for setting up this appointment. For inconviencing their staff with my stupid issues. I know they see 100 people a day and I'm like a fleeting 15 minute face in the grand scheme of things, but even on the lowest level to them, both the fear and how I see them view me is huge to me.
I guess I was just wondering if anyone else goes through this every time they set up an unscheduled visit to the dentist?