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Rufus T Firefly
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Tomorrow I have an apointment with the dentist, A phrase I often see used on here is :" I finally plucked up the courage..", It wouldn't be entirely accurate for me to say that, as this is perhaps the 4-5 time over the last ten years that i have finally plucked up the courage to make an appointment , what is perhaps different on this occasion is that previous times when the motivation had taken me to address the horror show that is my mouth I would contact a dentist and not be able to get an apointment for over a month which was enough time to ruminate and talk myself out of it, this time I went on the website on Monday and I have an appointment tomorrow.
Its hard to explain why I have tolerated dental pain , extreme body image issues and more as a result of my bad teeth, . I think after years of practicing the 'Ostrich method'(patent pending) its become a kind of default setting , sure I cover my mouth when I laugh, can only eat certain foods haven't smiled in years but most of this is unconscious and automatic. In fact I didn't realise how bad they really were until last night when I looked at them in probably the first time in three years. the thing is as much as I may bemoan people making judgments about me based on my teeth, If I am capital H Honest, I judge people with bad teeth as much as I hate to admit it.
I feel incredible shame over not only my teeth but the difficulty I have with anxiety over the dentist, I work as a Psychiatric nurse, Last week I facilitated a workshop for 8 patients entitled 'Distress tolerance' .
I expect I will need complete extraction on the top . on the bottom the lower front aren't great but seem intact , though My preference would just be to get rid of the lot and start with a completely clean smile.
I will update tomorrow after my appointment , and hopefully throughout the process
Its hard to explain why I have tolerated dental pain , extreme body image issues and more as a result of my bad teeth, . I think after years of practicing the 'Ostrich method'(patent pending) its become a kind of default setting , sure I cover my mouth when I laugh, can only eat certain foods haven't smiled in years but most of this is unconscious and automatic. In fact I didn't realise how bad they really were until last night when I looked at them in probably the first time in three years. the thing is as much as I may bemoan people making judgments about me based on my teeth, If I am capital H Honest, I judge people with bad teeth as much as I hate to admit it.
I feel incredible shame over not only my teeth but the difficulty I have with anxiety over the dentist, I work as a Psychiatric nurse, Last week I facilitated a workshop for 8 patients entitled 'Distress tolerance' .
I expect I will need complete extraction on the top . on the bottom the lower front aren't great but seem intact , though My preference would just be to get rid of the lot and start with a completely clean smile.
I will update tomorrow after my appointment , and hopefully throughout the process