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LanieM
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Another Terrified person....(issues with novacaine.)
I don't even know where to start. I really do just want to vent, and this is going to be so long, i don't expect anyone to read it, but I just feel like I'll feel better to get this "out."
I never really had a problem with going to the dentist, until a few years ago. I had been in the hospital for a kidney stone operation and while I was there, I was accidentaly overdosed and almost killed with an IV painkiller. Since that moment, I became irrationally afraid of medications of any kind- especially ones with needles. Drawing blood and such doesn't bother me. Stitches do not bother me- it's all about the medication going IN to me.
It took about five years for me to even take an antibiotic. Just recently, with my tooth infection, I took Tylenol and cleocin for the first time in five years. It was the first medication of any kind that even entered my body, and I had an extreme panic attack over it. But, i over came it!
Anyway- I have so much wrong in my mouth. One tooth needs pulled. A root canal needs to be finished. Other root canals. Several cavaties. This is truly destroying my life.
I found a dentist last year who did hypnosis dentistry and was willing to work on me without any meds. No shots, no anything. I did that, and though it was quite painful, i had NO PROBLEMS! I thought I was almost done with going, and then found out she was pretty much a quack, and through an xray from another dentisst, that she had not even fully drilled out the decay, and put fillings in over all of them, and everything she told me was "done" was actually not even close. Basically though, going to her made me realize that i was not afraid of the needles, drills, etc- it was just the injections. I CANNOT STAND that numb feeling in my throat, adn I can't stand my heart racing, and i can't stand the thought of the medication entering my body.
So, i started giong to therapy- after several months of treatment for panic attacks and phobias I returned to a differen dentist- I went, and finally dealt with the UPPER injection. Carbocaine without epi. I was SO EXCITED and happy because I was able to handle this- and got the first half of the root canal started. Then the dentist told me at the next appointment he would be doing the lower block and my throat would possibly go numb and that we would use more shots....and i freaked out. I never went back.
I am out of dentists which will accept my insurance. I went to a dentist today which should SERIOUSLY be SHUT dOWN by the health department. It was SO SO SO DIRTY it made me sick. Nothing was sterile.... there were lids left off of old compounds and the injection cartridges were laid out and EXPIRED!!! There was some sort of built up CRUD all over the instruments (I am NOT KIDDING) and the place where you spit into, had DRIED BLOOD splashes on it. I thought I was having a bad dream. Seriously. He came into see me, NEVER even x-rayed the tooth, was EATING while he was talking to me, and then stuck his fingers right into MY mouth, and I could actually taste what he had been eating. No gloves- no anything. It was seriously something out of a third world country. I am still sick over it.
Now, it took 3 weeks to stop this infection which had gone into my jaw, andnow the tooth needs pulled and is starting to hurt again, and i just cannot find the ability to do this. I am down to NO dentists to go to. I am crying and shaking and sick over this. It's all I think about.
I keep looking up online how the novacaine shots can kill you (I read it's rare, but it can happen) and I am 100 percent convinced that if they give me one in my lower jaw- one of those block things, that it will kill me....that it will enter my body instead of my jaw.....i've read how it can happen and that's all i am fixating on. I am in tears as I write this.
Please understand, I am pretty stable, otherwise. I have a full time job, I am a straight A third year college student working on my degree...but this is seriously TAKING OVER MY LIFE.
I don't even know what to do at this point. i am so upset. it's all i can think about. I just keep thinking that as soon as they inject the novacaine, i will not be able to handle it, and it may enter my body and cause a bad heart rhythm (because i have an abnormal one to begin with) and kill me.
And the only solutions people give me are to take pills. Take a valium, take laughing gas, take this or that- well, the problem is that THAT IS my fear. medications ARE MY FEAR because of what happened to me.
I am seriously considering just knocking my teeth out of my own mouth and checking myself into a mental hospital. I feel so compeltely insane for letting this overtake my entire life like this. i can't handle it.
I guess that's it.
thank you for anyone who actually read part of this.
I don't even know where to start. I really do just want to vent, and this is going to be so long, i don't expect anyone to read it, but I just feel like I'll feel better to get this "out."
I never really had a problem with going to the dentist, until a few years ago. I had been in the hospital for a kidney stone operation and while I was there, I was accidentaly overdosed and almost killed with an IV painkiller. Since that moment, I became irrationally afraid of medications of any kind- especially ones with needles. Drawing blood and such doesn't bother me. Stitches do not bother me- it's all about the medication going IN to me.
It took about five years for me to even take an antibiotic. Just recently, with my tooth infection, I took Tylenol and cleocin for the first time in five years. It was the first medication of any kind that even entered my body, and I had an extreme panic attack over it. But, i over came it!
Anyway- I have so much wrong in my mouth. One tooth needs pulled. A root canal needs to be finished. Other root canals. Several cavaties. This is truly destroying my life.
I found a dentist last year who did hypnosis dentistry and was willing to work on me without any meds. No shots, no anything. I did that, and though it was quite painful, i had NO PROBLEMS! I thought I was almost done with going, and then found out she was pretty much a quack, and through an xray from another dentisst, that she had not even fully drilled out the decay, and put fillings in over all of them, and everything she told me was "done" was actually not even close. Basically though, going to her made me realize that i was not afraid of the needles, drills, etc- it was just the injections. I CANNOT STAND that numb feeling in my throat, adn I can't stand my heart racing, and i can't stand the thought of the medication entering my body.
So, i started giong to therapy- after several months of treatment for panic attacks and phobias I returned to a differen dentist- I went, and finally dealt with the UPPER injection. Carbocaine without epi. I was SO EXCITED and happy because I was able to handle this- and got the first half of the root canal started. Then the dentist told me at the next appointment he would be doing the lower block and my throat would possibly go numb and that we would use more shots....and i freaked out. I never went back.
I am out of dentists which will accept my insurance. I went to a dentist today which should SERIOUSLY be SHUT dOWN by the health department. It was SO SO SO DIRTY it made me sick. Nothing was sterile.... there were lids left off of old compounds and the injection cartridges were laid out and EXPIRED!!! There was some sort of built up CRUD all over the instruments (I am NOT KIDDING) and the place where you spit into, had DRIED BLOOD splashes on it. I thought I was having a bad dream. Seriously. He came into see me, NEVER even x-rayed the tooth, was EATING while he was talking to me, and then stuck his fingers right into MY mouth, and I could actually taste what he had been eating. No gloves- no anything. It was seriously something out of a third world country. I am still sick over it.
Now, it took 3 weeks to stop this infection which had gone into my jaw, andnow the tooth needs pulled and is starting to hurt again, and i just cannot find the ability to do this. I am down to NO dentists to go to. I am crying and shaking and sick over this. It's all I think about.
I keep looking up online how the novacaine shots can kill you (I read it's rare, but it can happen) and I am 100 percent convinced that if they give me one in my lower jaw- one of those block things, that it will kill me....that it will enter my body instead of my jaw.....i've read how it can happen and that's all i am fixating on. I am in tears as I write this.
Please understand, I am pretty stable, otherwise. I have a full time job, I am a straight A third year college student working on my degree...but this is seriously TAKING OVER MY LIFE.
I don't even know what to do at this point. i am so upset. it's all i can think about. I just keep thinking that as soon as they inject the novacaine, i will not be able to handle it, and it may enter my body and cause a bad heart rhythm (because i have an abnormal one to begin with) and kill me.
And the only solutions people give me are to take pills. Take a valium, take laughing gas, take this or that- well, the problem is that THAT IS my fear. medications ARE MY FEAR because of what happened to me.
I am seriously considering just knocking my teeth out of my own mouth and checking myself into a mental hospital. I feel so compeltely insane for letting this overtake my entire life like this. i can't handle it.
I guess that's it.
thank you for anyone who actually read part of this.