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vica
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- Joined
- Aug 27, 2009
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- michigan
Last night it took me more than 6 hours to have the courage to post a thread here
I was absolutely terrified just lookink at words like root, canal, appointment
For the first time in my life I'm having the courage to disclose my 20year secret .
My mouth looks and smell like a trash can and I hate myself for it,
I'm so ashamed. I don't know if I will have the courage to open my mouth to a dentist
I can not even understand why I fear dentist like I do.
I was raised in a very disfuncional enviroment, lots and lots of violence and every kind of abuse
I'v been facing and treating most of my traumas but the dentist one is the worse I have
The dentist I had when I was a child (too many years ago) was like a butcher and I vaguely remember once or twice the tools in my mouth being so hot that gave me blister
Thank for your kindness in starting this forum, and all the people who shares their stories
I do understand somehow that I have to face this trauma with kindness (hard to be kind to myself)
Now that I'm having the courage and support to talk about, I see that the roots of the problem it is much, much deeper than I thought
In any moment today I felt the dispair I did last night. Thanks to you!
I will take one day at time
Thanks, Thanks again!!
I was absolutely terrified just lookink at words like root, canal, appointment
For the first time in my life I'm having the courage to disclose my 20year secret .
My mouth looks and smell like a trash can and I hate myself for it,
I'm so ashamed. I don't know if I will have the courage to open my mouth to a dentist
I can not even understand why I fear dentist like I do.
I was raised in a very disfuncional enviroment, lots and lots of violence and every kind of abuse
I'v been facing and treating most of my traumas but the dentist one is the worse I have
The dentist I had when I was a child (too many years ago) was like a butcher and I vaguely remember once or twice the tools in my mouth being so hot that gave me blister
Thank for your kindness in starting this forum, and all the people who shares their stories
I do understand somehow that I have to face this trauma with kindness (hard to be kind to myself)
Now that I'm having the courage and support to talk about, I see that the roots of the problem it is much, much deeper than I thought
In any moment today I felt the dispair I did last night. Thanks to you!
I will take one day at time
Thanks, Thanks again!!