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Hey everyone,
I know I posted about this a few days ago but, as you've probably noticed in the title, I really really need a hug right now. My first dentist appt. in 10 years is coming up a week on Tuesday and I cannot feel even slightly calm about it and have been filled with anxiety and fear since I scheduled it (Monday night). It has been playing on my mind constantly since then and I have been losing sleep and focus over it I keep wondering what the dentist (Balinder) is going to find, whether I could take the full exam and x-rays and hear the results without freaking out, how I'm going to keep myself composed in the waiting room and in the dentist office and also how I am going to have treatment done (They are an NHS clinic with sedation but the sedation doesn't "start again" until April - how on EARTH I am going to have any drilling/pulling done without this stuff is going to be beyond me )
When I phoned and explained etc. I asked the receptionist if I could bring my "List of Fears/Concerns" (which i took to my counselling sessions) with me and just purely chat about that for one appt. and then perhaps do an exam on another date: the reply to that was a "No, we can't do that. Its not allowed in the regulations": (With it being an NHS practice I can sort of understand with the tight time constraints they work under but I was really disappointed) she then said that the dentist was going to do an exam and x-rays on my first appt. there and I mumbled my (disappointed) "Okay then", though my gut wrenched at this. Full exam and X-rays on the FIRST appt. in TEN YEARS with NO real chance to tell the dentist properly about my fears??? When I was little, I only ever had several *very* quick looks outside of the chair as I was too intimidated when I was little and can only remember her putting a mirror in my mouth ONCE and having a quick X-ray done when I was about 7 for some fashionably-late adult teeth. I mean, I'm sure I could give it all a shot and really genuinely hope I give it a good ol' try in the chair and everything as I think I could do that, but I do feel like I've had a bit too much put on me - oh gosh....
The plan is this: my mum is picking me up from college at 11:30 and is going to drive me there (the bus timetable makes it a bit awkward to get there on time) and drop me off. At my request, my mum will not go into the building with me and will go home again unless there is a consent form of some sort to sign as I am not quite 18 yet. I am hoping and praying that I at least remain composed in the waiting room - the receptionist knows I am a phobic and I'm sure the dentist has been told this by now; my worst nightmare at the moment is actually proving (if you know what I mean) that I am phobic in front of a packed waiting room, even worse if somebody I know is present at the same time. I don't suppose it would be so bad freaking out inside the office as at least that is kind of private and the dentist (hopefully) has a clue about what I am like. I know the receptionist said I couldn't have a whole appt. time to just talk but I'm going to bring my list in anyway and hopefully the dentist will read it for 5 minutes before anything is done.
So yeah, my stomach is in knots, I feel a bit sick, my mind is spinning and I feel like I'm about to cry. I am determined to sit in the chair and have this exam done regardless of what state I am in as I believe I cannot bear to freak out so much I get sent home and it gets pushed back as that is more worry. I am so freaked but I really want to do this - I've got this far!
All best wishes and prayers appreciated - please please give me a big hug somebody
I know I posted about this a few days ago but, as you've probably noticed in the title, I really really need a hug right now. My first dentist appt. in 10 years is coming up a week on Tuesday and I cannot feel even slightly calm about it and have been filled with anxiety and fear since I scheduled it (Monday night). It has been playing on my mind constantly since then and I have been losing sleep and focus over it I keep wondering what the dentist (Balinder) is going to find, whether I could take the full exam and x-rays and hear the results without freaking out, how I'm going to keep myself composed in the waiting room and in the dentist office and also how I am going to have treatment done (They are an NHS clinic with sedation but the sedation doesn't "start again" until April - how on EARTH I am going to have any drilling/pulling done without this stuff is going to be beyond me )
When I phoned and explained etc. I asked the receptionist if I could bring my "List of Fears/Concerns" (which i took to my counselling sessions) with me and just purely chat about that for one appt. and then perhaps do an exam on another date: the reply to that was a "No, we can't do that. Its not allowed in the regulations": (With it being an NHS practice I can sort of understand with the tight time constraints they work under but I was really disappointed) she then said that the dentist was going to do an exam and x-rays on my first appt. there and I mumbled my (disappointed) "Okay then", though my gut wrenched at this. Full exam and X-rays on the FIRST appt. in TEN YEARS with NO real chance to tell the dentist properly about my fears??? When I was little, I only ever had several *very* quick looks outside of the chair as I was too intimidated when I was little and can only remember her putting a mirror in my mouth ONCE and having a quick X-ray done when I was about 7 for some fashionably-late adult teeth. I mean, I'm sure I could give it all a shot and really genuinely hope I give it a good ol' try in the chair and everything as I think I could do that, but I do feel like I've had a bit too much put on me - oh gosh....
The plan is this: my mum is picking me up from college at 11:30 and is going to drive me there (the bus timetable makes it a bit awkward to get there on time) and drop me off. At my request, my mum will not go into the building with me and will go home again unless there is a consent form of some sort to sign as I am not quite 18 yet. I am hoping and praying that I at least remain composed in the waiting room - the receptionist knows I am a phobic and I'm sure the dentist has been told this by now; my worst nightmare at the moment is actually proving (if you know what I mean) that I am phobic in front of a packed waiting room, even worse if somebody I know is present at the same time. I don't suppose it would be so bad freaking out inside the office as at least that is kind of private and the dentist (hopefully) has a clue about what I am like. I know the receptionist said I couldn't have a whole appt. time to just talk but I'm going to bring my list in anyway and hopefully the dentist will read it for 5 minutes before anything is done.
So yeah, my stomach is in knots, I feel a bit sick, my mind is spinning and I feel like I'm about to cry. I am determined to sit in the chair and have this exam done regardless of what state I am in as I believe I cannot bear to freak out so much I get sent home and it gets pushed back as that is more worry. I am so freaked but I really want to do this - I've got this far!
All best wishes and prayers appreciated - please please give me a big hug somebody