- Jul 9, 2022
After years of different verdicts on whether my orthodontic problems, which are unnatural and were caused by orthodontics, are going to destroy my front teeth or not, concerns about how they will progress, and constant discomfort and irritation from the area, I decided to try one more consultation. I thought it might be better if I could try an orthodontist who might be from the same subculture as me, since all my consultations have been with orthodontists who were from a different subculture than I am from. This orthodontist told me something I had never heard before, that one of my front teeth could be broken by my orthodontic problems, though he thought that most of my front teeth weren't going to destroy each other enough to require veneers or crowns, which is something a few people have told me. I am really unhappy about the idea that one of my front teeth can be broken though he told me that it would be OK and would be fixed with bonding material if that happens. He also told me that I am basically not treatable by orthodontics, or it would be worse to treat me than for me to stay the way I am, which I have heard before. That sucks too, the teeth he thinks might break are uncomfortable because of the way they hit and I guess I am going to be like that the rest of my life, feeling that pressure. That is partly my fault for getting a dental implant while being super anxious and too anxious and upset to point out or talk about my orthodontic problems to my dentist, or to deal with them appropriately with an orthodontist. Dental implants can't move during orthodontics and that cuts off a lot of options for me. Even talking to this guy his assistant I felt like I was going through quicksand or cement and so flustered and confused, and I know I couldn't talk or act in a way that doesn't make me seem crazy, can't ask the right questions, and can't be clear. I just can't handle any type of consultation. I am so unhappy over the past, I wish I had never gotten involved in orthodontics in the first place, and I feel like my parents and I were deceived about it, and then getting the dental implant, I knew it would affect my options with my orthodontic problems, but I was led by anxiety, and an inability to talk to my dentist about some issues (I was unable to handle any discussion of my front teeth orthodontic problems at the time the treatment plan was made without panicking, getting loud, etc.), or to stomache the thought of adding more procedures when I needed 5 extractions and an implant. I am just so frustrated I am angry with myself that I can't handle myself enough to get the right treatment, and if I had been less anxious, I might have been about to treat this problem before getting the implant. I think I would have just needed to speak up to the dentist about it, and I knew it at the time, but I couldn't do it. I am also angry with the orthodontist from my childhood for leaving out basically all pertinent information about orthodontics to make it sound like a risk free mild beauty treatment, when it worked out horribly, and finally I am so tired of how none of this is an exact science, so nothing is ever clear and nobody ever says the same thing.