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Chickadeeisabigchicken
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- Jul 3, 2008
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- Canada, eh?
ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF:
1) I go by the username Chickadeeisabigchicken, but you can call me Chickadee for short. That was my Girl Guide Leader name.
2) I am from Canada, eh?
3) I am approaching the age of thirty.
4) I probably have one of the dorkiest smiles in the entire province of Alberta. Not even a Heifer would want to date me!
I am surprised to find a lot of Canadians that are in the same boat as me. Scared to go to the "evil place" as I like to call it. Not only am I surprised, but relieved too. I am not the only dork who feels self-contempt and self-pity and who has self-esteem issues. But it is better being alone in my thoughts and feelings, because nobody can bother me about going to "the evil place"! Of course, I am getting tired of thinking about my ugly teeth all the time. I say to myself "Okay Chickadee, you can call office #1 in Edmonton, then office #2 in Edmonton, then office #3 in St. Albert, then office #4 in Spruce Grove . . . and then you can compare each office. And after that..." There never is an "after that" because there never is any "that"! I am ashamed to tell you all this, because I know that I can and should be treating myself better. It's just that I do things 8, 9, or 10 times slower than the average person. The slower I put any uncomfterable experience off, the better, is what I have been telling myself for over 7 years. But I have had enough! I can admit that I need help.
This is me today:
This should be me in a a week:
This should be me in a month:
This will be me - hopefully - four or five months from now:
before entering "the evil place" . . .
in the waiting room (a.k.a. the entrance to "the torture chamber") . . . in "the torture chamber" waiting for "the evil master" to make her grand entrance . . .
me, finally getting out the truth (and realizing the master is my friend) . . .
and at the consultation almost puking . . . trying to behave . . . drooling . . . laughing (I must be kidding myself) . . . hmmm... option #1 or #2? (now I an really kidding myself) . . .
and as I am leaving the office - yes, I will call it an office! . . . I will run as fast as I can! but then come back to dentalfearcentral and be coaxed into making another appointment . . .
This should be me a year to a year and a half from now: after a lot of treatment - slow and steady, though - and a lot of support from my new dentalfearcentral pals!
Am I dreaming? I hope not...so...not...so...I can't make up my mind, I am so confused! I am too afraid to do anything. HELP!
1) I go by the username Chickadeeisabigchicken, but you can call me Chickadee for short. That was my Girl Guide Leader name.
2) I am from Canada, eh?
3) I am approaching the age of thirty.
4) I probably have one of the dorkiest smiles in the entire province of Alberta. Not even a Heifer would want to date me!
I am surprised to find a lot of Canadians that are in the same boat as me. Scared to go to the "evil place" as I like to call it. Not only am I surprised, but relieved too. I am not the only dork who feels self-contempt and self-pity and who has self-esteem issues. But it is better being alone in my thoughts and feelings, because nobody can bother me about going to "the evil place"! Of course, I am getting tired of thinking about my ugly teeth all the time. I say to myself "Okay Chickadee, you can call office #1 in Edmonton, then office #2 in Edmonton, then office #3 in St. Albert, then office #4 in Spruce Grove . . . and then you can compare each office. And after that..." There never is an "after that" because there never is any "that"! I am ashamed to tell you all this, because I know that I can and should be treating myself better. It's just that I do things 8, 9, or 10 times slower than the average person. The slower I put any uncomfterable experience off, the better, is what I have been telling myself for over 7 years. But I have had enough! I can admit that I need help.
This is me today:
This should be me in a a week:
This should be me in a month:
This will be me - hopefully - four or five months from now:
before entering "the evil place" . . .
in the waiting room (a.k.a. the entrance to "the torture chamber") . . . in "the torture chamber" waiting for "the evil master" to make her grand entrance . . .
me, finally getting out the truth (and realizing the master is my friend) . . .
and at the consultation almost puking . . . trying to behave . . . drooling . . . laughing (I must be kidding myself) . . . hmmm... option #1 or #2? (now I an really kidding myself) . . .
and as I am leaving the office - yes, I will call it an office! . . . I will run as fast as I can! but then come back to dentalfearcentral and be coaxed into making another appointment . . .
This should be me a year to a year and a half from now: after a lot of treatment - slow and steady, though - and a lot of support from my new dentalfearcentral pals!
Am I dreaming? I hope not...so...not...so...I can't make up my mind, I am so confused! I am too afraid to do anything. HELP!
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