- Jul 8, 2021
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow morning, and I do not want to go. I hate this sense of dread I feel when I need to deal with dental work. I'm phobic of all of it and have been for years, but now things actually are bad in terms of lost teeth and I am scared of getting more bad news tomorrow. I have lost four molars and two more have been identified as in need of extraction. I've also lost 2 bicuspids on the left and I really need a lower partial now, and especially after the lower right molars come out. My upper left #13 and #14 are in bad shape and have symptoms that make me think I'm going to lose them, too. Then I won't have anything on my upper left, and will need an upper partial, too. I'm just feeling very panicky and while I know I need to go before I lose even more, I just have this horrible dread and weight about it. I'm scared, too, because I've been waiting seven weeks for this appointment with a new dentist. I met her once in December when she helped me through an emergency because I used to see her old partner who retired a year ago. Now, I will have to be ready to start making appointments for whatever work needs doing, and it's all overwhelming me. I'm filled with regret, too, that if I was going to have to face it eventually, I wish I had faced it before so much loss, but I know I wasn't in a place mentally (as far as the phobia and PTSD) to do more than I have done.