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Phil098342wq
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I guess I will start a journal, my first few posts I was a little shy. Now that I have "sufferred" some, I feel like I can be a little more open. Besides, maybe some one can offer some comments or "words of wisodm" I am not an expert, that is why I find my self stumbling around the internet and empty boxes looking for something. This will be my outlet for rage, sadness, joy and excitment. I am shy and not very out going, but after you have had numerous people you don't know sticking their hands in your mouth, what can you do. So here goes-I have compiled a list of my past posts here, take you time to read them, they're staying.
June 12th 2006:
I am really stressing out. Wednesday I go under the drill to have a root canal and a filing and I may not sleep much from now till then. On Thursday I will be meeting with an endodontics specialist to examine a tooth that I recently had a root canal on. The tip of a file broke off in the tooth and I am really worried they may have to pull it. The dentist is apologetic and I really like how he treats me like a human. Three months ago I went to have x-rays taken and that re-injured a jaw injury from having my wisdom teeth out that I did not even know I had until now and I am still in pain. Last week I stressed out from the anticipation of the appointment last week concerning that tooth, which was suppose to be filled and I am sick. My medical doctor is concerned and I am seeing a stress management therapist tomorrow. My psychotherapist and I met Saturday and she did what is called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (www.emdr.com) which is helpful for trauma suffers. I just don’t know how much more I can take on the emotional and physically aspects of this. I am not talking suicide, although I was last week, but I am so tempted to quit. I take Vallium 10 mg before the appointment which I don’t feel really but am afraid not to take it, they administer the gas all through the appointment. I also listen to music and try visualization plus this week I am taking in a pillow to hold, hey I may be a guy but if it works why not. What else can I do? How do I get through this? I am so glad I am not alone in all of this. I have broken down in tears several times these past few weeks and am about ready to again.
June 16th, 2006
It was the worst one yet I could not control my breathing and broke down crying several times. I don’t think I can go through much more. The cavity that has been in my mouth since early 1999 is now gone and no root canal. Wednesday, the day of the treatment, I almost could not survie the waiting room. Then they started the gas and I could not stop crying. The doctor came in and spoke to me and we proceeded with the shot. A few minutes late memories over came me and I broke down. The woman who was with me got the staff who got the dentist and he gave me a second shot. I began to calm down some what then when he started to drill it was not numb enough. He gave me a third shot and I don’t remember him leaving, I do remember the drilling starting again, and I could feel it and I was thinking I just wanted to get through it. Then it seemed like seconds pasted, I don’t know if I blacked out or the gas but he was standing up talking to me and I got mad and just wanted him to finish when in fact he was telling me it was over and no root canal. Then the woman came in to do the filling and some where in that part the nitrous oxide machine broke and I guess I agreed to have it removed and was fully conscious of the filling work. It was awful. I am still a little on edge from it and it is Friday afternoon. I go back Monday for more. Yesterday I saw a specialist about the tip of a file that was left in my tooth that he did a root canal on. They will do a second root canal in three weeks. Tomorrow I see my psychotherapist for more therapy on this. I just don’t know how much more I can take. I did take a pillow last time to hold, it helped and last night I spent 200 American dollars on an MP3 player, heck if I am spending thousands on dental I sure as heck can spend a couple hundred on devices to help me cope.
18th of June 2006
I had a pretty intense therapy session yesterday and a lot of good came from it. We did a therapy for trauma victims called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. We had done it in the past with GREAT success on other things. In this session we sent over the causes of my apprehension with the dental visits primarily focusing on my early teen years.
One horrible memory was with a quack who stab me once, gave painful injections and the worse-drilled an tooth that was not numb without stopping even though I was almost screaming. As we dug into this we more memory of that came to light, I have had this before where I think I remember everything, but what I call emotional amnesia blocks something out. The dentist stopped, came back with an another injection and injected me then left me, a twelve year old boy whose mother would not believe earlier horror stories and wouldn’t this one either, anyway he left me alone in the room.
Even though I have had someone from my team with me when I go to the dentist, I was partly panicking because a member of the team was leaving the room. Much as a twelve year old boy would do. I know feel better, not good, just a little better about upcoming visits, another one is in twenty four hours-OH MY GOD!
Another thing was that my mother forced me to go back to school for two hours, then a forty five minute bus ride home when I was pain, unable to drink and queasy. I am glad I got this out of my system and now know to focus on the fact that I am not alone, and that I do great at self care.
I hope this little success story helps some one. Print it out, take it to your therapist-the brain is an amazing…organ that hold so many secrets and some therapies may work for some and not for others, EMDR has done wonders for me for getting past unresolved issues and remembering the whole story. Remember this is not medical advice, I just hope it is a spring board to some one else getting along a little bit better.
June 21st, 2006
I was at the dentist three days ago. Every thing went horribly wrong. The work on the left canine and incisor was supposed to go easier than the right (the same teeth had about the same cavities on both sides). The week prior both on the right went fine. However the first problem was that they had a problem getting the incisor numb. After the drilling the dentist stopped, took me off the gas and told me it needed a root canal or pulling and the canine was closer to the nerve than the one on the right which is bothering me. He had explained all of this in great detail in our consults so I decided to get both root canals at the same time. They injection more Novocain into me and then the dentist tried the incisor and it was still active so he injected me again and did the root canal on the canine. From time to time he tested the incisor with no success and I had lost count at six injections. Finally he was done with the canine. I had been in the chair and pain long enough and when he jabbed the tooth and I got done squealing, yes squealing, I told him to go ahead with the root canal. He agreed to work fast and that it would be over soon and it WAS VERY PAINFULL! He did talk with me through it and I was hyperventilating afterwards, shaking all over and crying like a new born baby so he left at two nurses in the room to calm me down. My confidence in the dentist and my courage lasted and I was able to complete the procedure with only the nitrous oxide helping the pain in that tooth, which wasn’t much. Every time he put his file down the hole I could feel the scraping and the jab into the gum. I am VERY PROUD of myself though. I made it, I did it, Yeah. On a side not most of my support staff was unavailable and I even had a replacement driver that I had not had along before and my therapist is out of town.
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June 12th 2006:
I am really stressing out. Wednesday I go under the drill to have a root canal and a filing and I may not sleep much from now till then. On Thursday I will be meeting with an endodontics specialist to examine a tooth that I recently had a root canal on. The tip of a file broke off in the tooth and I am really worried they may have to pull it. The dentist is apologetic and I really like how he treats me like a human. Three months ago I went to have x-rays taken and that re-injured a jaw injury from having my wisdom teeth out that I did not even know I had until now and I am still in pain. Last week I stressed out from the anticipation of the appointment last week concerning that tooth, which was suppose to be filled and I am sick. My medical doctor is concerned and I am seeing a stress management therapist tomorrow. My psychotherapist and I met Saturday and she did what is called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (www.emdr.com) which is helpful for trauma suffers. I just don’t know how much more I can take on the emotional and physically aspects of this. I am not talking suicide, although I was last week, but I am so tempted to quit. I take Vallium 10 mg before the appointment which I don’t feel really but am afraid not to take it, they administer the gas all through the appointment. I also listen to music and try visualization plus this week I am taking in a pillow to hold, hey I may be a guy but if it works why not. What else can I do? How do I get through this? I am so glad I am not alone in all of this. I have broken down in tears several times these past few weeks and am about ready to again.
June 16th, 2006
It was the worst one yet I could not control my breathing and broke down crying several times. I don’t think I can go through much more. The cavity that has been in my mouth since early 1999 is now gone and no root canal. Wednesday, the day of the treatment, I almost could not survie the waiting room. Then they started the gas and I could not stop crying. The doctor came in and spoke to me and we proceeded with the shot. A few minutes late memories over came me and I broke down. The woman who was with me got the staff who got the dentist and he gave me a second shot. I began to calm down some what then when he started to drill it was not numb enough. He gave me a third shot and I don’t remember him leaving, I do remember the drilling starting again, and I could feel it and I was thinking I just wanted to get through it. Then it seemed like seconds pasted, I don’t know if I blacked out or the gas but he was standing up talking to me and I got mad and just wanted him to finish when in fact he was telling me it was over and no root canal. Then the woman came in to do the filling and some where in that part the nitrous oxide machine broke and I guess I agreed to have it removed and was fully conscious of the filling work. It was awful. I am still a little on edge from it and it is Friday afternoon. I go back Monday for more. Yesterday I saw a specialist about the tip of a file that was left in my tooth that he did a root canal on. They will do a second root canal in three weeks. Tomorrow I see my psychotherapist for more therapy on this. I just don’t know how much more I can take. I did take a pillow last time to hold, it helped and last night I spent 200 American dollars on an MP3 player, heck if I am spending thousands on dental I sure as heck can spend a couple hundred on devices to help me cope.
18th of June 2006
I had a pretty intense therapy session yesterday and a lot of good came from it. We did a therapy for trauma victims called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. We had done it in the past with GREAT success on other things. In this session we sent over the causes of my apprehension with the dental visits primarily focusing on my early teen years.
One horrible memory was with a quack who stab me once, gave painful injections and the worse-drilled an tooth that was not numb without stopping even though I was almost screaming. As we dug into this we more memory of that came to light, I have had this before where I think I remember everything, but what I call emotional amnesia blocks something out. The dentist stopped, came back with an another injection and injected me then left me, a twelve year old boy whose mother would not believe earlier horror stories and wouldn’t this one either, anyway he left me alone in the room.
Even though I have had someone from my team with me when I go to the dentist, I was partly panicking because a member of the team was leaving the room. Much as a twelve year old boy would do. I know feel better, not good, just a little better about upcoming visits, another one is in twenty four hours-OH MY GOD!
Another thing was that my mother forced me to go back to school for two hours, then a forty five minute bus ride home when I was pain, unable to drink and queasy. I am glad I got this out of my system and now know to focus on the fact that I am not alone, and that I do great at self care.
I hope this little success story helps some one. Print it out, take it to your therapist-the brain is an amazing…organ that hold so many secrets and some therapies may work for some and not for others, EMDR has done wonders for me for getting past unresolved issues and remembering the whole story. Remember this is not medical advice, I just hope it is a spring board to some one else getting along a little bit better.
June 21st, 2006
I was at the dentist three days ago. Every thing went horribly wrong. The work on the left canine and incisor was supposed to go easier than the right (the same teeth had about the same cavities on both sides). The week prior both on the right went fine. However the first problem was that they had a problem getting the incisor numb. After the drilling the dentist stopped, took me off the gas and told me it needed a root canal or pulling and the canine was closer to the nerve than the one on the right which is bothering me. He had explained all of this in great detail in our consults so I decided to get both root canals at the same time. They injection more Novocain into me and then the dentist tried the incisor and it was still active so he injected me again and did the root canal on the canine. From time to time he tested the incisor with no success and I had lost count at six injections. Finally he was done with the canine. I had been in the chair and pain long enough and when he jabbed the tooth and I got done squealing, yes squealing, I told him to go ahead with the root canal. He agreed to work fast and that it would be over soon and it WAS VERY PAINFULL! He did talk with me through it and I was hyperventilating afterwards, shaking all over and crying like a new born baby so he left at two nurses in the room to calm me down. My confidence in the dentist and my courage lasted and I was able to complete the procedure with only the nitrous oxide helping the pain in that tooth, which wasn’t much. Every time he put his file down the hole I could feel the scraping and the jab into the gum. I am VERY PROUD of myself though. I made it, I did it, Yeah. On a side not most of my support staff was unavailable and I even had a replacement driver that I had not had along before and my therapist is out of town.
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experience than you appear to be getting. Not sure I'd go back for more, but you're done now are you? I/V sedation might be a better option for you in future for major work?
, it will be with me the rest of my life. I may make a post about this, but not now. I truly am ready to cry, a 27 year old man. I will be heading back to my childhood home for the fourth, I know my teeth haven't had much work, but they are better than when I left with the exception that I am missing one in the front, but the front is crowed it is barely noticable. I wonder if anyone will say anything.