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Nomoreoptions
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Of course I know why I am on here but don't know what I am doing. I have been reading the threads and this is great. I didn't know there was something like this out there. So thank you to everyone for supporting each other, we need more of that in this world.
I am 33yrs old and happily married. I have fought with tooth problems since a young age. Runs in the family. But in reality,I have taken poor care of myself for so long that my teeth issues are FAR beyond a discussion or a few visits. In the past 8 years I have had so many random things happen to break teeth (5 seperate incidents, 5 teeth never to return) and then through my depression and everything I allowed for essentially the rest of my teeth to decay to where I virtually have none, the few left are in awful shape. Again, with my history of everything I have now realized I have told no one the truth or even clued a soul in on my condition at all...... including my wife of almost 8yr... I don't know how I have hidden it so well.... but I see how much it has effected me in everything in my life. I feel like I am going to lose my life to this.... or my marriage.. she is the most loving and caring person in this world. But this is gross... I didn't even know until now that I haven't kissed my wife more than a long peck since first married, I don't share food and avoid sharing drink to avoid somehow making her sick.. i don't know what it's like to smile it's been so long. I only grin making sure to not show. Now I have changed myself, how I act, the positions I apply for, basically everything of me to the point I have no clue who I am. I have made a lot of mistakes in this life and been a burden But this just takes it. I just don't know what to do with it. I have definitely made myself feel shame before too many times to count.. this is definitely by far the most trapped I have ever made myself feel.. such a simple thing.. start somewhere.. I've hidden it too well for too long.. it's becoming too much with the pain and all accompanying fun stuff.... My wife finally scheduled a cleaning for me. trying to do a nice thing, she has no clue how bad it really is... I already know it's beyond that cleaning appointment. Of course I will cancel and come up with an excuse as to why.. i swear this isn't me looking for pity.. it's the first time I have been honest about my condition with anyone including myself.. I hope I can see some light in this...
Thanks for letting me vent and listening..
I am 33yrs old and happily married. I have fought with tooth problems since a young age. Runs in the family. But in reality,I have taken poor care of myself for so long that my teeth issues are FAR beyond a discussion or a few visits. In the past 8 years I have had so many random things happen to break teeth (5 seperate incidents, 5 teeth never to return) and then through my depression and everything I allowed for essentially the rest of my teeth to decay to where I virtually have none, the few left are in awful shape. Again, with my history of everything I have now realized I have told no one the truth or even clued a soul in on my condition at all...... including my wife of almost 8yr... I don't know how I have hidden it so well.... but I see how much it has effected me in everything in my life. I feel like I am going to lose my life to this.... or my marriage.. she is the most loving and caring person in this world. But this is gross... I didn't even know until now that I haven't kissed my wife more than a long peck since first married, I don't share food and avoid sharing drink to avoid somehow making her sick.. i don't know what it's like to smile it's been so long. I only grin making sure to not show. Now I have changed myself, how I act, the positions I apply for, basically everything of me to the point I have no clue who I am. I have made a lot of mistakes in this life and been a burden But this just takes it. I just don't know what to do with it. I have definitely made myself feel shame before too many times to count.. this is definitely by far the most trapped I have ever made myself feel.. such a simple thing.. start somewhere.. I've hidden it too well for too long.. it's becoming too much with the pain and all accompanying fun stuff.... My wife finally scheduled a cleaning for me. trying to do a nice thing, she has no clue how bad it really is... I already know it's beyond that cleaning appointment. Of course I will cancel and come up with an excuse as to why.. i swear this isn't me looking for pity.. it's the first time I have been honest about my condition with anyone including myself.. I hope I can see some light in this...
Thanks for letting me vent and listening..