Punkerpants
Member
- Joined
- Oct 31, 2018
- Messages
- 47
- Location
- Los Angeles, CA
Hello everyone,
I haven't been here in a long while. I am having a backslide with my phobia and I couldn't even face coming on here. At least now I've finally taken a big (for me) step forward by posting this.
I still have not gone back to the dentist (I know I said I would try to go back last year) and now I've been having some bad pain and what appears to be a tiny cavity next to an old filling. I'm so paranoid because the pain is so intense I think the cavity might actually be a large one hiding underneath the filling and I'm only seeing a small portion of it. I see another even tinier hole developing on the other side of the same tooth now too.
I keep telling myself it's better to get this taken care of before it gets any worse, but then I keep pushing it off ("oh, I'm busy this month, let me think about next month," "oh, my friend [who goes with me for moral support] has a lot going on now so I'll wait until she has more free time," etc.). Meanwhile the pain gets worse and worse.
I feel a little silly posting about this because I know some of you have been through so much more and have pulled through despite your fears but I am unable to do it. I feel so stuck.
I haven't been here in a long while. I am having a backslide with my phobia and I couldn't even face coming on here. At least now I've finally taken a big (for me) step forward by posting this.
I still have not gone back to the dentist (I know I said I would try to go back last year) and now I've been having some bad pain and what appears to be a tiny cavity next to an old filling. I'm so paranoid because the pain is so intense I think the cavity might actually be a large one hiding underneath the filling and I'm only seeing a small portion of it. I see another even tinier hole developing on the other side of the same tooth now too.
I keep telling myself it's better to get this taken care of before it gets any worse, but then I keep pushing it off ("oh, I'm busy this month, let me think about next month," "oh, my friend [who goes with me for moral support] has a lot going on now so I'll wait until she has more free time," etc.). Meanwhile the pain gets worse and worse.
I feel a little silly posting about this because I know some of you have been through so much more and have pulled through despite your fears but I am unable to do it. I feel so stuck.