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beech23
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- Jan 25, 2012
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Hey guys,
I dont even know where to start. I have been a lurker in this forum for a long time, admiring those facing their dental woes but thinking I will never join them!
My teeth are a complete and utter state, disgusting! I am ashamed beyond words of how bad I have let them go. I have lost a couple of teeth, several have cracked down to the jaw line and some are sensitive. I always try not to smile because they seem discoloured aswell.
Until December there was no evidence of my front teeth being in danger. However a couple of days before Christmas I felt my gums above my front left tooth(and the one to the left of it) seem red and swollen around the tooth. This has now continued over my four front teeth. I spent Christmas in bed telling my family I felt sick but in reality I was just stressed and terrified that 1 - my teeth might fall out and 2 - I would have to see a dentist. I was so consumed with fear I just locked myself away in my room. I have not really ate much either since noticing this - just incase my teeth cant handle it. I eat a little every day but I have lost over a stone since noticing this. I am so so so terrified a front tooth falls out!!!
I live away from home for work, so when I got back to work in Janurary this constant worry and stress followed me. I am a teacher and could literally not face work if something was to happen my teeth. Anyways after worrying away Christmas, losing the weight and just feeling sick with stress two weeks ago I finally found the strenght to pick up the phone and call a dentist.
I had wanted to say so much on the phone, explain I had not been to the dentist in so long .. say how nervous I was .. just so many things. But I seriously struggled to get the basics out to make the appointment. Once it was done I just collapsed in tears of both worry for the appointment but relief that first part had been done. I also feel like, because I am a NHS patient the dentist may not have time to be very understanding. How do I communicate how nervous I am when I get there?
Anyways, the appointment is Friday now. Thats 44 hours away and I am just sick, down right sick at the thought of it. I know I need to go. I need to face this. I feel like how will I get through a teaching day tomorrow and Friday with this stress but on the other hand I am so afraid a tooth comes out I am saving a sick day for that :s
However the dentist in my household growing up was always almost taboo. My dad was terrified of the dentist and would not go. As a 11 year old I had a terrible experience getting gassed for teeth out where my mum had told me I was going to a show and ended up taking me to a dentists and already I was in the room on the chair being held down to gas for extractions before I realised what was going on. At 16 I found the courage to go back to the dentist, however the dentist was quite short with me and critical of my teeth. (I cant believe how worse they have got since then :s ) After that experience I decided I would never go back, however the time has come.
I have recently moved to a new city and live alone. I havent many friends here yet and no support. Noone I can ask to come. My boyfriend doesn’t live close enough to be here and just doesnt understand the fear, he has no idea how bad my teeth are and thinks its to help me so why am I so nervous. I think he is losing patience with me over this whole thing.
And so I turn to you guys to get me through the next hours to my appointment. I know it will just be an assessment and the start of a long road. But I need it to start before I go crazy with worry.
I dont even know where to start. I have been a lurker in this forum for a long time, admiring those facing their dental woes but thinking I will never join them!
My teeth are a complete and utter state, disgusting! I am ashamed beyond words of how bad I have let them go. I have lost a couple of teeth, several have cracked down to the jaw line and some are sensitive. I always try not to smile because they seem discoloured aswell.
Until December there was no evidence of my front teeth being in danger. However a couple of days before Christmas I felt my gums above my front left tooth(and the one to the left of it) seem red and swollen around the tooth. This has now continued over my four front teeth. I spent Christmas in bed telling my family I felt sick but in reality I was just stressed and terrified that 1 - my teeth might fall out and 2 - I would have to see a dentist. I was so consumed with fear I just locked myself away in my room. I have not really ate much either since noticing this - just incase my teeth cant handle it. I eat a little every day but I have lost over a stone since noticing this. I am so so so terrified a front tooth falls out!!!
I live away from home for work, so when I got back to work in Janurary this constant worry and stress followed me. I am a teacher and could literally not face work if something was to happen my teeth. Anyways after worrying away Christmas, losing the weight and just feeling sick with stress two weeks ago I finally found the strenght to pick up the phone and call a dentist.
I had wanted to say so much on the phone, explain I had not been to the dentist in so long .. say how nervous I was .. just so many things. But I seriously struggled to get the basics out to make the appointment. Once it was done I just collapsed in tears of both worry for the appointment but relief that first part had been done. I also feel like, because I am a NHS patient the dentist may not have time to be very understanding. How do I communicate how nervous I am when I get there?
Anyways, the appointment is Friday now. Thats 44 hours away and I am just sick, down right sick at the thought of it. I know I need to go. I need to face this. I feel like how will I get through a teaching day tomorrow and Friday with this stress but on the other hand I am so afraid a tooth comes out I am saving a sick day for that :s
However the dentist in my household growing up was always almost taboo. My dad was terrified of the dentist and would not go. As a 11 year old I had a terrible experience getting gassed for teeth out where my mum had told me I was going to a show and ended up taking me to a dentists and already I was in the room on the chair being held down to gas for extractions before I realised what was going on. At 16 I found the courage to go back to the dentist, however the dentist was quite short with me and critical of my teeth. (I cant believe how worse they have got since then :s ) After that experience I decided I would never go back, however the time has come.
I have recently moved to a new city and live alone. I havent many friends here yet and no support. Noone I can ask to come. My boyfriend doesn’t live close enough to be here and just doesnt understand the fear, he has no idea how bad my teeth are and thinks its to help me so why am I so nervous. I think he is losing patience with me over this whole thing.
And so I turn to you guys to get me through the next hours to my appointment. I know it will just be an assessment and the start of a long road. But I need it to start before I go crazy with worry.