- Oct 24, 2015
I'm a 26 yr old mother of 2. 3 if you count my baby boy who was made an angel June 1st while I was 8 months pregnant.. But that's not why I'm here. I've always had phobias of dentists as I'm sure as most people, I've avoided them at all costs for years.. Never really had any issues other than staining from coffee and cigarettes which I easily fixed with those teeth whitening deals... I recently realized it was when I became pregnant with my oldest, that's when I started having trouble with my teeth.. Then before her first birthday I was already pregnant again with my son.. I mean I practiced good hygene.. No I didn't see a dentist, there were a few ER visits where I would go in extreme pain and beg a doctor to light me up with enough lido/novocaine so I can make it through the night without banging my head against a wall.. When I was pregnant I took my vitamins.. Drank milk.. But every time I got pregnant I always knew because my teeth would start hurting real bad for no reason.. This past year when we found out I was pregnant again I promised my husband I would go to a dentist and get my teeth fixed once the baby was born, considering at this point they were cracking badly, just overall not doing good at all and I became veryyyyyy self conscious over it to where I would find ways to hide my mouth while talking to people and hated smiling in pictures, even the mirror. Anyway.. Enough backstory.. Like I said June 1st I lost my baby boy at 8 months.. Causing a hell of a lot of emotional problems for me as you could imagine.. So my family ( I guess trying to lift my spirits) suggested I do my teeth finally..my mother in law went ahead and made an apt for me without my knowledge beforehand (which I wasn't too happy with but that's how she is) with a dentist who on my first visit.. Knew right away all my teeth were gonna have to go.. I mean I knew they were bad but.. I thought some would be able to be saved.. Caps.. Something.. But nope. Unfortunately I cannot afford implants or anything fancy as my aunt is the one who will be paying for my actual dentures.. I've already had all of my right teeth( upper and lower) taken out..and a few in the front. As I'm closing in on getting what's left in my mouth, taken out.. I'm feeling like I made the wrong choice or that I could have had a second or third opinion to see if there was a better option. I mean, toothless mom at 26. I'm sure I'll be suchhh a turn on for my husband after this.. Or even during this process.. He just says it's better than having what I had before and that I'll feel more confident but he doesn't give me the warm and fuzzies about it still... I feel like you can always tell when someone is wearing dentures. I'm nervous they're gonna look fake and people will automatically know. I mean I've seen and heard young people like me with their stories and they've gotten partials and caps and implants and Ofcourse they look amazing.. This has been the worst year of my life and I already have anxiety/panic disorder from my son passing..which sometimes I wonder if my teeth caused his passing ( I obsess over what could have caused it) But all of this just amplifies it all and it makes a million bad things run through my head.. If I could just hear some success stories, get some support ..kind words.. Anything.. I'd truly appreciate it. I don't get much support on anything around here.. It's more like " ok it happened.. Now move on" type of deal.. so any bit counts.. Thanks for sticking through my whole rambling saga.. & Thank You in Advance...