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StarfallAbyss
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- Jun 21, 2022
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Hello!
I am 26 years old and I've had fillings in almost all my teeth at this point. I drink way to much sugared soda, and just sugary things in general. I have tried in the past to build better habits and routines to take care of my teeth. But because of my anxiety and depression, all it takes is a stressful event or something throw me back to square 1. Every time I go to the dentist I feel dread, knowing there will be another cavity. I get embarrassed, thinking my dentist is judging me every time I go. After all, I judge me. I feel lazy and pathetic for not being able to do something so many others do. It gets to the point where I will avoid going.
Recently I noticed what are probably at least 2 new cavities. I wrote an email to my dentist. But discovering the cavity and having to tell them I probably have another sent me spiraling down a deep depressive hole. I had thoughts of harming myself. I hated myself so much in that moment. Still do. I keep thinking I'll have no teeth by the time I'm 40. All becuase i'm too pathetic to stick to a routine, to quit drinking soda. I chose to write here as an outlet and got some kind responses. I was surprised how much it made me feel better.
I am going to try again. To build better habits. To brush my teeth, floss, and mouthwash every day. To stop consuming so much sugar. I keep thinking "You're going to fail again. You never make a lasting change." I guess I'm writing here to give myself some accountability. Like, maybe vocalizing it where strangers can see it will help me make it stick this time. Maybe it will, maybe it won't. I might update milestones to motivate me a bit, if that's appropriate here. The past is unchangeable and the future is unknowable. But I can choose what I do here and now. And I am going to give it my all.
Sorry for the ramble. If anyone else is going through something similar, know I'm rooting for you.
Thanks,
Starfall Abyss
I am 26 years old and I've had fillings in almost all my teeth at this point. I drink way to much sugared soda, and just sugary things in general. I have tried in the past to build better habits and routines to take care of my teeth. But because of my anxiety and depression, all it takes is a stressful event or something throw me back to square 1. Every time I go to the dentist I feel dread, knowing there will be another cavity. I get embarrassed, thinking my dentist is judging me every time I go. After all, I judge me. I feel lazy and pathetic for not being able to do something so many others do. It gets to the point where I will avoid going.
Recently I noticed what are probably at least 2 new cavities. I wrote an email to my dentist. But discovering the cavity and having to tell them I probably have another sent me spiraling down a deep depressive hole. I had thoughts of harming myself. I hated myself so much in that moment. Still do. I keep thinking I'll have no teeth by the time I'm 40. All becuase i'm too pathetic to stick to a routine, to quit drinking soda. I chose to write here as an outlet and got some kind responses. I was surprised how much it made me feel better.
I am going to try again. To build better habits. To brush my teeth, floss, and mouthwash every day. To stop consuming so much sugar. I keep thinking "You're going to fail again. You never make a lasting change." I guess I'm writing here to give myself some accountability. Like, maybe vocalizing it where strangers can see it will help me make it stick this time. Maybe it will, maybe it won't. I might update milestones to motivate me a bit, if that's appropriate here. The past is unchangeable and the future is unknowable. But I can choose what I do here and now. And I am going to give it my all.
Sorry for the ramble. If anyone else is going through something similar, know I'm rooting for you.
Thanks,
Starfall Abyss