GalacticGlitter
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Sorry if this is rambly!!!
So after not going to a dentist since my parents used to take me yeeears ago - think over a decade (and I stopped largely because that dentist started treating me rudely in my teenage years resulting in at least one visit where he performed the anasthesia poorly also I had braces - from a chain dentist and I think they are an AWFUL chain - and that made dental stuff traumatic during my teens) I finally, after my latest far back tooth lost the last of its filling (and feels like its mostly gone too, but it might also have grown in wrong and no one told me or my mom?), got my partner (I also have severe phone anxiety mostly wrt appointments and strangers) to call a dentist that I found that thankfully takes my state insurance to schedule me an appointment.
However despite reading about how nice this dentist is and all, the fact that its two months away makes me just... hope this tooth doesn't get any worse problems. It doesnt really hurt so knock on wood! The others that I have problems with, two furthest back as well that have only partially lost fillings, haven't given me trouble either for years but I do need them fixed too. Also I'm hoping it isn't as extensive or if it is that somehow we'll be able to handle the cost (because my state insurance will probably handle it to an extent, and that's great! But I'm worried it wont be enough). I've considered asking my family for financial help but only because I like to think they care about my health and have helped another of my siblings with dental cost in the past. But I'm not sure that I will as I'm already afraid to share this stuff with them in the first place for fear of judgment. I was also just a touch scared of the dentist judging me but this site helped alleviate that by reassuring me that my teeth are probably not as bad as they could be!
I'm really still in the end happy that I'm starting this "journey" of sorts, that my partner is supportive as heck and knows all of my fears and why and also at least wasn't as judgmental of my teeth as I was worried they'd be and gave me the push to do this. But I also still have this gap of time and need to distract myself from thinking about it!
I'm just happy to have somewhere to share this because I usually bottle this stuff up and kinda shut myself away from outside support and its not good for my mental health (I have general and social anxiety as it is lol). Thank you for reading!
So after not going to a dentist since my parents used to take me yeeears ago - think over a decade (and I stopped largely because that dentist started treating me rudely in my teenage years resulting in at least one visit where he performed the anasthesia poorly also I had braces - from a chain dentist and I think they are an AWFUL chain - and that made dental stuff traumatic during my teens) I finally, after my latest far back tooth lost the last of its filling (and feels like its mostly gone too, but it might also have grown in wrong and no one told me or my mom?), got my partner (I also have severe phone anxiety mostly wrt appointments and strangers) to call a dentist that I found that thankfully takes my state insurance to schedule me an appointment.
However despite reading about how nice this dentist is and all, the fact that its two months away makes me just... hope this tooth doesn't get any worse problems. It doesnt really hurt so knock on wood! The others that I have problems with, two furthest back as well that have only partially lost fillings, haven't given me trouble either for years but I do need them fixed too. Also I'm hoping it isn't as extensive or if it is that somehow we'll be able to handle the cost (because my state insurance will probably handle it to an extent, and that's great! But I'm worried it wont be enough). I've considered asking my family for financial help but only because I like to think they care about my health and have helped another of my siblings with dental cost in the past. But I'm not sure that I will as I'm already afraid to share this stuff with them in the first place for fear of judgment. I was also just a touch scared of the dentist judging me but this site helped alleviate that by reassuring me that my teeth are probably not as bad as they could be!
I'm really still in the end happy that I'm starting this "journey" of sorts, that my partner is supportive as heck and knows all of my fears and why and also at least wasn't as judgmental of my teeth as I was worried they'd be and gave me the push to do this. But I also still have this gap of time and need to distract myself from thinking about it!
I'm just happy to have somewhere to share this because I usually bottle this stuff up and kinda shut myself away from outside support and its not good for my mental health (I have general and social anxiety as it is lol). Thank you for reading!