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Thisishard
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- Jan 4, 2015
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Here I sit. At night, tired and scared. I suffer anxiety and depression and frankly I am sick of it. 50 years old and most of that time, 30 years, has been spent with an unrelenting feeling of dread. Doctors, elevators, vacations, air travel, and (of course) dentists. You name it and I break into a cold sweat. Not much of a way to live really. The fear of doctors and dentists is the worst. I know I should go, and when I don't, I feel guilty and fearful.
I set a goal to break thru this veil of fear and at least try, to see if I could live normally. Funny thing, "normal", I do not have much experience with it, but it seems like a reasonable goal. The path to normal, has seen me make a doctors appointment, first in 10 years. That actually went fine. I found out, I am in pretty decent shape for middle aged, stressed out, hypertensive male. I took an on line course for air travel, and successfully completed a couple of trips. Now I have a dental appointment for Monday morning. I have not been for many years. I brush, floss and rinse several times a day, and presently do not have much pain. The occasional twinge. I am totally freaked out. Frankly, I would rather ride an elevator, in a plane, over the ocean to a medical convention.
Over the course of the last 9 months I have made and canceled 5 different appointments. I do pay for them if I wait to long to cancel. That gets expensive. I think I have found a good dentist. Since I made the appointment I have visited the office several times, just to get used to it. They are always welcoming and the dentist has actually come out to talk to me twice. They specialize in patients like me. Just needed to tell someone and I need a little support to get me through that door on Monday morning.
Thanks!
I set a goal to break thru this veil of fear and at least try, to see if I could live normally. Funny thing, "normal", I do not have much experience with it, but it seems like a reasonable goal. The path to normal, has seen me make a doctors appointment, first in 10 years. That actually went fine. I found out, I am in pretty decent shape for middle aged, stressed out, hypertensive male. I took an on line course for air travel, and successfully completed a couple of trips. Now I have a dental appointment for Monday morning. I have not been for many years. I brush, floss and rinse several times a day, and presently do not have much pain. The occasional twinge. I am totally freaked out. Frankly, I would rather ride an elevator, in a plane, over the ocean to a medical convention.
Over the course of the last 9 months I have made and canceled 5 different appointments. I do pay for them if I wait to long to cancel. That gets expensive. I think I have found a good dentist. Since I made the appointment I have visited the office several times, just to get used to it. They are always welcoming and the dentist has actually come out to talk to me twice. They specialize in patients like me. Just needed to tell someone and I need a little support to get me through that door on Monday morning.
Thanks!