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jasm1nefl022
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As a child, I was always nervous around the dentist but I always got all my appointments done. As I got older my dental health got more demanding, I have extremely cavity-prone teeth and only found out a few months ago. At about 14 I had to get a tooth removed and it was extremely traumatizing to me, I was awake for it and I could feel everything happening in my mouth. I begged the dentist at the time to stop and was sobbing the entire time. The dentist told me I was only feeling pressure and that I was acting like a baby, even though I was definitely hurting. He smacked my face and told me to grow up. I made it through it and thought that I was recovered just fine. Fast forward to the next dentist appointment where I needed to get a filling. (different dentist) I got so terrified that I ended up not letting her do it. Since then I have found a new dentist with whom I do much better, but I cry during every appointment. Every single one. But, she is an amazing dentist who waits as long as I need to calm down before proceeding with any procedure. She is truly a blessing to me I have made a lot of progress with her. I had to get my wisdom teeth out and I am very scared of having anything done to me now. The nurses brought me into the surgery room and started preparing me but I started crying, when the surgeon came in I sobbed and cried for them not to put the IV in cause I needed a break. The needle hurt so bad and they ended up sticking me with it four different times. I couldn't handle all that was happening to me. All I needed was a second to breathe without them crowding all around me and they wouldn't let me. The last thing I actually remember was feeling hopeless and begging God to save me cause I thought they were just trying to hurt me. I feel like all the progress of recovering from trauma with my new dentist has been flushed down the drain. Since that day I have nightmares of being trapped down and having the needle forced and not being able to stop them. I felt and feel violated. I am honestly crying just thinking about it now. I can't understand why they wouldn't just let me sit up, have a breather, and calm myself before continuing. I feel traumatized and I can't even imagine myself going to another dentist appointment now.
I don't want to blame the surgeon for this but I definitely do.
How am I supposed to recover from this?
I don't want to blame the surgeon for this but I definitely do.
How am I supposed to recover from this?