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I did it!! My first dental visit in almost 20 years!!!!

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Hi everyone!! 36 female here and have been reading this forum for a while & finally decided to post!

Well, I finally had my first dental exam in what seems likes forever and it actually wasn't as bad as I thought!!

My teeth are horrible, really stained front bottom teeth, broken wisdom teeth, broken molar, terrible breath and receding gums. It's my own fault for letting them get that way, I know that and I own that. Like most, I had a horrible, horrible dentist when I was younger (I like to call him the butcher) and have been scared to death to go ever since.

Last week I finally called the place that my friend takes her husband to, he has anxiety like me, my original appt was for this Thursday, but they had a cancellation and asked I wanted to go today. I wanted to tell them to go to hell, but decided to just get it over with. I am so glad I did.

Although I was freaking out driving there and my other friend called and started telling me about how she broke up with some guy or something, I wasn't paying attention because I was concentrating on just getting there. I don't remember most of the conversation (I know, bad friend, but she knew where I was going and what this meant to me!!)

The receptionist was so kind and sweet and told me it would be ok. When they finally called me in I started panicking again. I told the Dr's assistant what's been going on, then I broke out in tears. I've been just so embarrassed and mad at myself for letting it get so bad and told her that I'm embarrassed for them to even look at me. She was the sweetest thing and extremely understanding. Once I stopped crying she asked if she can look at the teeth. She was so gentle!! Then she asked if she could take Xrays... I said yes. Again...she was very gentle and we were making jokes about how she doesn't have to go to the gym because she kept running out of the room to activate the machine. On my way back teeth, she had me hold the camera because I have a gag reflex and slightly gagged. But that's just me....not the woman's fault!! You should see me at my regular Dr's office when I need to get my throat swabbed when I go for a cold....oh yeah..it usually takes about a half hour to do haha.

They had a little screen attached to the chair so I could view the Xrays as they happened. I thought that was cool. When she went to go get the dentist I just sat there looking at my teeth thinking "what the hell did I do to myself" and was feeling so ashamed.

Then the dentist came in and he was so nice and kind, very funny and sooooo understanding. He asked to look in mouth, again I said yes and again, it was gentle. He made me feel so comfortable.

Then he told me the news...I have gum disease, which I kinda figured. He wants to take out the wisdom teeth and the roots of the broken tooth. And I have a couple of cavities that need to be taken care of. He also said that my stained teeth in the front (they are a nice shade of brown) can be cleaned up pretty easily. I was shocked by that, I thought he was going to tell me he was going to pull them. They are so gross for me to look at, I can't imagine what other people think when they talk to me.

So my next appt is this Saturday the 13th. They are going to start with a deep scaling cleaning. They are going to do my upper left and lower left side to start. they are going to clean up my front teeth, and he said he could probably take out the wisdom teeth too on that side if I wanted. I said let's do it. Then I will go back the day after thanksgiving to have my upper right and lower right done. I will go back in the beginning of December to make sure everything is ok and he said he will have a better determination if I need to see the "gum specialist" He doesn't think so, but just to make sure. then he said at that point we will talk about when my next visit to be to take care of the cavities. Then he wants me in every 3 months for a cleaning. Which is fine. I reallly, really, really liked this guy. He spelled everything out for me, gave me some pamphlets on gum disease and even drew me some pictures of whats going on haha. I felt so comfortable with him that I was craking some jokes on him too, which is funny considering I was balling my eyes out just a little while earlier haha.

It's going to be a process... but I'm ready. It took me 2 years to make this call. Just the thought of going made me sick to my stomach. And every time someone brought their dental visit, I would become quiet and put my head down because I was so embarrassed. My teeth have been holding me back for so long and I'm tired of it. Why can't I enjoy life like everyone else? why can't I have a conversation with someone and not get nervous of them looking at my teeth? I deserve to be happy....and so don't YOU!!!

But the worst part is over. I thought they were going to yell at me and judge me and they didn't. He told me my teeth weren't the worse he's ever seen...not even in the top 100!!

When I go next week, he wants me to take a valium an hour before, then they will give me nitrous. I'm still scared, but I'm so relieved that I finally went!!! And I just want to get this done and over with. I told him I want this done as quick as possible.

I know a lot of you are scared...but I am too and I'm telling you...it's ok. Look online, go to this website for support and to talk about your fears (this place has been beyond helpful to me!!) find a dentist, do your research and see if the place is good for you and will help you with your fears. If you find someone nice....it's so much easier to go. Trust me, if I can go...you can go!! I am you and you are me and we CAN get threw this!!! And we can do this together!

Sorry this is a novel!!! But a big hug to all of you and good luck and I'm sending you all out good vibes to get the courage and the strength to call. The first phone call is the worst, but you can do it!!!

I think I need a beer now!!! Have a good night everyone and much love to you all!!!
 
well done ... the first one is the worst .. but when you come out you will feel amazing that you done it.

every one after that gets easier and your confidence will soar.:jump:
 
So, so happy for you! Don't you feel GREAT?!? I did the same thing last month, got similar news to yours, now have 5 weekly visits under my belt with only 2 or 3 to go.
You'll be amazed what the deep clean/scaling will accomplish. I'm re-learning how to smile with my lips open again. I'll never be a model for Colgate, but I sure look better than before!
Congrats...I'm clinking my wine glass to your beer bottle!
 
You are so right m@tski, the first one IS the worst. It's been so long since my last visit that I didn't know what to expect. But everyone was so nice and understanding I realized that they want to help me and not hurt me like my old butcher dentist!! Just walking threw that door was a big accomplishment for me!!

And congrats to you mghstl!! That's great you only have a few appointments left!! That's so awesome you can smile with your lips open....sigh...I'm jealous haha!!! I can't wait for the day that I can talk or even smile and not worrying that people are going to look at my teeth!! But you are right, I felt so great after I left!!

I'm still nervous for the scaling, but I think once I'm there...I'll be ok. (Heck, I should be on nitrous & valium haha) I've never taken valium before, so I'm a little nervous about how I will feel on that.

I am beyond happy that I've found this forum...it has given me the courage to do things I never thought I would. Reading other peoples stories and drawing from their strengths and knowing they are going threw the same fears as me has been beyone helpful!! Now, if I can just get over my fear of rollercoasters...you know what...I'm actually happy with that fear hahaha!!

Thank you and super big hugs to both of you!!! :XXLhug:
 
You'll do fine with the scaling/deep cleaning, especially with a "little pill" plus nitrous. That's how mine was done, with the help of novocain. One quarter of my mouth at a time. No discomfort during or after. And WOW, the results! So much of what I thought was decay was staining and it comes off! My teeth at the gumline looked like topsoil and now they look OK. Future whitening treatments now actually make sense to me because the brown is GONE.
Keep up the good work and best wishes!
 
Congratulations on starting your dental journey!! It sounds like you have a nice dental office!
I know when I found this website 2+ years ago, I was SO grateful for all the support I received (still am grateful). It REALLY helps that you are not alone in this fear....that there are other people out there that have this fear, too!
Great job!!!
A :hug2: from me to you!
Jen
 
Now I'm really jealous of your smile mghstl!!!;D That gives me lots of hope that the staining can be removed. I know I need other work too, but those teeth are in the back and these are up front and I didn't think it was noticeable because it was on my bottom teeth..boy, was I wrong! I'll take an OK smile anyday over the one I have now!!!

My brother made a comment to me at my aunts wedding this summer which went a little something like this. "Will you please go to the dentist...your teeth are disgusting" yeah, I was very upset to say the least. I just got up calmy and went outside and cried and didn't talk to him for the rest of the night. Then my exboyfriend, we have been trying to work things out lately said to me "I don't want to be rude or anything, but did you have that tooth fixed yet, it was kinda gross" but this was after I made the appt. Trust me, I'm not doing this for them, I'm doing this for me. When we broke up everyone kept saying that I need to get out there and date. Which I agree, but how can I when I am so self concious of my teeth. They really have been holding me back from doing alot of things.

After hearing that the stain came off your's ...it gets me really excited to go tomorrow (wait...did I just say I'm excited?:o) I think once the stain is off, I'll feel happier and more at ease with what else they have to do! And teeth whitening??? Never thought I could ever get to the point where that would be an option!! I'm so happy for you!!!;D Thank you for giving me hope that this won't be as bad as I think it will be, I really appreciate it!!!

Thanks chickenjen!! The place I found is really great. Over the years I've called other places and told them of my anxieties and was basically told to get over it. I was reading some of your journal (dang there are a lot of pages!!!) But I'm happy for you and how far you have come (I skipped to the end...I couldn't wait to hear how everything turned out haha)

Thank you guys both so much, just sharing my story with people who are going threw the same thing has really eased my mind and have made it a little easier to go!!

Group hug!!!:grouphug:
 
Everything is relative...as I've said, I'll never be Julia Roberts, but now my smile is no worse than the "general public's". Not gorgeous-white-glow-in-the-dark smile, but what I consider a nice smile. I can live with that and am no longer unreasonably self-conscience. I was lucky...during the exam of my gumline that looked like manure, all of them ticked of at a "2" with a few "1" and "3". Had no idea what they were talking about but now know that the bigger the #, the more trouble.
Of course, I still have two gaps in my lower front gums, 3 temp crowns on my lower front gums, one extraction ahead of me, yadda yadda yadda. You will do great! You already have! Let me know if you need to be reminded of what you've already accomplished...I'm REAL good at "virtual" bu++ kicks.
So happy for you!
 
Hi mghstl, I read your journal last night and wow...you've come such a long way and I am so so happy for you too!!:jump:

I had my first scaling yestreday and my god....she got rid of the stains!!! When she showed me in the mirror, I bursted into tears I was so happy!! I no longer feel like a leper!! But she did work on my teeth for a while, they did the whole left side. I thought at one point when she was scraping off the plaque that she was going to take the whole tooth with her, it sounded like she was chipping cement. (which I guess technically she was haha)

The only thing I didn't like was that they didn't give me the nitrous. I think whoever set up the appointment forgot to add it in there system, because when I got in the room, they set up the ONLY room with out nitrous. I asked for it and she seemed a little surprised I asked, but assured me I'd be ok and she would take it slow. I could of used it when they were giving me the novicane, even though I took the valium...I started panicking when they gave the shots. I think it was 4 or 5. I can't rememeber as I clenching my hands so hard and had tears streaming down my face. But she gave me time to breath and I felt ok. Next time I told her...I want nitrous just to take the edge off.

But you were right, the rest of the scaling wasn't that bad. A few times I felt sensitive with the cold water, but it was on the teeth further away from where the novacaine shots were. She gave me a bunch of "fun" looking tools to use on my teeth for the next few weeks and gave me instructions on what I need to do to heal my gums.

I actually gave her a hug when I was done because now I can actually talk to people without covering my smile!!!;D And to me, that was the most important thing...no more embarrasment!!

My friend who took me, when I walked out she asked how it was...I just smiled at her and she started crying and hugged me because she knew how much this has been bothering me.

I noticed almost immediately that my breath wasn't as bad as before!! Now I can rest assured that I won't melt someones face off with my hot garbage breath haha! I'm sure it's still not the greatest...but much, much better than it was!!!

My gums were sore last night and where they did the novacain injections was sore too. I also noticed that my front teeth are more sensitive to cold now. But I'm sure that'll pass in a few days. They were just protected so long by a few layers of filth haha.

But I just want to thank you for all your kind words, you've helped me so much and I'm truly truly thankful!!:XXLhug: Once the scaling is done, they will talk to me about the extractions, and I will take you up on your offer of a virtual butt kick then haha;D And they better give me nitrous for that!!!

I still can't believe that I actually went threw with all this, but the way my smile looks now...it was so, so worth it!! I'm going to go buy me a new outfit today to reward myself for doing something that has been my worst fear for so, so long!!!

Thanks again!!! :cheers:
 
boopy;8861 I noticed almost immediately that my breath wasn't as bad as before!! Now I can rest assured that I won't melt someones face off with my hot garbage breath haha! I'm sure it's still not the greatest...but much said:
Once the scaling is done, they will talk to me about the extractions, and I will take you up on your offer of a virtual butt kick then haha;D And they better give me nitrous for that!!!

LOL, hot garbage breath!! Don't worry, you'll probably get multiple kicks in the butt. I don't think you'll need them though. Now that you are on the road to dental health, I'm pretty sure you WILL NOT want to go back to the way you were before, so I think you'll do just fine in keeping your appointments. If you are nervous about an appointment, just post on here, and somebody will be here to reassure you.
Yes, my journal is long....it's 2+ years in the making and my story is STILL not finished. The end of my story will come when my dentist FINALLY says to me, "Okay, all your treatment is done. See you in 6 months."
You should be SO proud of yourself! I know I feel pride for ANYONE who starts their dental journey......because ONLY we know how hard that step is to make!!!
I can't wait to read more of your story!
Take care and a :hug2: from me to you!
Jen
 
I just love great news first thing Monday a.m.!!
I'm back "in the chair" tomorrow a.m. and will keep you in my mind as inspiration.
So, so happy for you.
 
Oh yeah, my breath was so bad, I should've gotten a job with a painter or carpenter so that I could breath on the wallpaper and it would come right off. It was THAT bad!! But it's been much, much better..still not the best, but I feel much more comfortable talking to people.

And since the stains are FINALLY off, I feel great talking to people and not having to cover my bottom teeth or feel worried that they were staring at them in horror. There has been a few times I caught myself covering my mouth and stopping and thinking...you don't have to do that any more. It's been sooooooo liberating and I feel so great!! And like you mghstl, I was actually thinking of going for a round of teeth whitening after all the big stuff is done. We will see.

I was thinking the other day...well...since the stains are off I don't need to go back, actually I would be quite happy if I don't ever have to see a dentist again, but I know I have to.I've come so far after many, many years of not going. I can't stop now. I have the rest of the scaling next friday, then a follow up a few weeks after to find out about the extractions and the fillings. Really not looking forward to that.

I've been doing really good brushing twice a day, flossing which I'm still having a little bit of a hard time doing. I haven't done it since I was a kid because I was scared that me teeth were so rotten that I would take the whole tooth out. But the flossing is becoming a little easier. I have this gum stimulator thing that ive been using and at night, I do the salt water rinse. I've becoming a little paranoid of food getting caught in them and all the crap starting all over again, I've been doing a good thorough brushing each time.

But I just want to say a big thank you to all of you with all your kind words and support. And I'm so happy for all of you with your dental journeys. It's so nice to finally find a place like this were we don't have to feel judged or made fun of and we can all turn to each other for support.

This place and all of you are really a godsend!! Big hugs to you all & cheers!!!:hug2::cheers:
 
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