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McHobbit
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I'm sorry for starting yet another sob story thread and spamming all over the place. I have my first appointment (just a consult) on the 25rd. I couldn't have gotten an earlier one since being driven by a loved one is the only way I feel that I can safely get there. I know it's silly and I'm mad at myself for not being able to take the bus. I just feel like I need to go home as soon as I can with as few people as possible seeing me after a dentist appointment.
Anyway, I just don't know how I'll make it through this week. I'm a complete wreck. I just keep going through all of the possible horror scenarios (what if I need sedation again and have to wait months, how will I be able to make it through waiting for appointments where actual work is done if I'm like this for a consult already, what if I have gum disease or cavities under all of my fillings etc. etc. etc.). I cannot seem to distract myself for more than a few minutes before I start thinking of doomsday again. I was a reasonably stable and not constantly moody person when I was pretending that the dental stuff simply doesn't exist. Now I'm a complete pain to be around and feel like sobbing most of the time. Sure, I had issues but nothing like this. Ironically, my dental phobia has never been as bad as it is now. It never consumed me 24/7 the way it does now, not even at its peek. Just filling my day with something that isn't worrying about the dentist appointment is a seemingly impossible struggle.
What if I get a treatment plan that takes months? I already feels like I can't take this for another day. I know I'm being dramatic but it feels like it'll be forever. That I'll never be able to properly enjoy anything again because I will always have to go to the dentist. And there's no going back either. I let that cat out of the bag and it's not going back in. But I'm starting to wonder if this is really worth it. If I didn't know that dentures don't mean no more dentist, I'd have them all ripped out just so I can go back to living life.
Did any of you ever feel this way or is it just me? It gets better, right?
Anyway, I just don't know how I'll make it through this week. I'm a complete wreck. I just keep going through all of the possible horror scenarios (what if I need sedation again and have to wait months, how will I be able to make it through waiting for appointments where actual work is done if I'm like this for a consult already, what if I have gum disease or cavities under all of my fillings etc. etc. etc.). I cannot seem to distract myself for more than a few minutes before I start thinking of doomsday again. I was a reasonably stable and not constantly moody person when I was pretending that the dental stuff simply doesn't exist. Now I'm a complete pain to be around and feel like sobbing most of the time. Sure, I had issues but nothing like this. Ironically, my dental phobia has never been as bad as it is now. It never consumed me 24/7 the way it does now, not even at its peek. Just filling my day with something that isn't worrying about the dentist appointment is a seemingly impossible struggle.
What if I get a treatment plan that takes months? I already feels like I can't take this for another day. I know I'm being dramatic but it feels like it'll be forever. That I'll never be able to properly enjoy anything again because I will always have to go to the dentist. And there's no going back either. I let that cat out of the bag and it's not going back in. But I'm starting to wonder if this is really worth it. If I didn't know that dentures don't mean no more dentist, I'd have them all ripped out just so I can go back to living life.
Did any of you ever feel this way or is it just me? It gets better, right?