Catie McBain
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I've been browsing this forum for a week or so, trying to get up the courage to join and reach out for support. So I'm here now, and I'm absolutely terrified. I don't know what else to do, so I thought I might as well make a post and see if I can find a way to work through this, or someone who can help me work through this.
I'm 36 and I need to have my wisdom teeth removed. I only have two, one on the bottom left and one on the top right. Both are in bad shape. The entire crown broke off of the left one a few months ago. The one on the right is nothing more than a rotten stump after slowly crumbling away for a period of years. Both are infected, but the left one is really badly infected. So much so that it's making me sick, and I had to go to the doctor yesterday and start taking antibiotics.
I know that I should make an appointment and go in and have them removed. Probably sooner rather than later. But I was browsing these forums today, reading through these articles and trying to figure out how to cope with all of this mess, and that alone made me start crying. I tried to calm down and take a break from it all, but I was still feeling overwhelmed. I actually ended up on the kitchen floor, just curled up in a ball and sobbing.
I don't know how to cope with this, and I don't have anyone who really understands what I'm going through. My closest friend just told me to, "Suck it up, buttercup." But when you're on the floor having an emotional breakdown, that really doesn't help.
I know that if I go to the dentist I'm going to start crying right there in front of everyone. The thought is so embarrassing, knowing that everyone in the building will be able to hear me and they'll probably think I'm acting like an idiot or being a big baby. I also have an extreme fear of needles, and I have horrible panic attacks which have, in the past, lead to sudden vomiting when I'm under a lot of stress. I have thrown up on the floor of the doctor's office, just because they told me to have blood tests. Which I refused. So I imagine it won't be pleasant if I go to the dentist and start crying and throwing up.
I feel like I could start crying again right now, and probably will. I try telling myself that if I could force myself to have IV sedation it wouldn't be so bad. But I honestly don't know if I can even walk through the front door, let alone make a request when I'm crying and hysterical. Of course, I don't know if my insurance will even cover IV sedation. I've heard that it's considered a luxury so most insurance companies won't pay for it.
I'm just really scared and I don't know what to do. Hopefully making this post will help somehow. Maybe just talking to someone about it is what I need. I don't know, but I guess I can always try.
I'm 36 and I need to have my wisdom teeth removed. I only have two, one on the bottom left and one on the top right. Both are in bad shape. The entire crown broke off of the left one a few months ago. The one on the right is nothing more than a rotten stump after slowly crumbling away for a period of years. Both are infected, but the left one is really badly infected. So much so that it's making me sick, and I had to go to the doctor yesterday and start taking antibiotics.
I know that I should make an appointment and go in and have them removed. Probably sooner rather than later. But I was browsing these forums today, reading through these articles and trying to figure out how to cope with all of this mess, and that alone made me start crying. I tried to calm down and take a break from it all, but I was still feeling overwhelmed. I actually ended up on the kitchen floor, just curled up in a ball and sobbing.
I don't know how to cope with this, and I don't have anyone who really understands what I'm going through. My closest friend just told me to, "Suck it up, buttercup." But when you're on the floor having an emotional breakdown, that really doesn't help.
I know that if I go to the dentist I'm going to start crying right there in front of everyone. The thought is so embarrassing, knowing that everyone in the building will be able to hear me and they'll probably think I'm acting like an idiot or being a big baby. I also have an extreme fear of needles, and I have horrible panic attacks which have, in the past, lead to sudden vomiting when I'm under a lot of stress. I have thrown up on the floor of the doctor's office, just because they told me to have blood tests. Which I refused. So I imagine it won't be pleasant if I go to the dentist and start crying and throwing up.
I feel like I could start crying again right now, and probably will. I try telling myself that if I could force myself to have IV sedation it wouldn't be so bad. But I honestly don't know if I can even walk through the front door, let alone make a request when I'm crying and hysterical. Of course, I don't know if my insurance will even cover IV sedation. I've heard that it's considered a luxury so most insurance companies won't pay for it.
I'm just really scared and I don't know what to do. Hopefully making this post will help somehow. Maybe just talking to someone about it is what I need. I don't know, but I guess I can always try.