Hi Carys
I'm glad I have made a bit more sense now - I get myself in such a pickle that I waffle on and on, and make things worse for you guys to understand.
I cant eat hard stuff whatsoever, I wouldn't dream of eating anything like that. I am always scared to bite into even soft stuff - I lost a crown many years ago eating an M&S sarnie that had chopped celery in it! And the tooth that broke, I had a piece of food in my mouth that just 'touched' it and it came away!! I have to eat food that is easily broken down with a combination of my tongue and gums, with a little bit of 'chewing' on my teeth, but have to be very wary
I have written my draft letter to my dentist and will add a couple of bit in, as I have thought of during the morning. I feel terribly self conscious without the tooth. I had a reasonably good day yesterday as my daughter got us tickets to go to the ideal home show at Olympia and it not only took my mind off things for a bit, but apart from my daughter, no-one knew me, and I didnt specifically have to smile at them, so although I went around with a fairly serious face, I didnt have to worry about people seeing me.
I have however upset my daughter today, as my nephew has just come home from Afghanistan (he is only 18) and is heading back home to Scotland. My sister in law is having a welcome home party for him in a few weeks, and my daughter wants me to go, as do my husband and son, but because of how I feel, I just cant bring myself to do it.
I have to go to work to earn money, so have no choice there, although people have noticed a huge change in me because I am so down, but I just cant bring myself to do the things I normally would love doing because I am so conscious, and so many people just dont understand.
I really hope you dont have to go through what I am going through Carys, because as I keep saying, I am living in my own worst nightmare and dont know if I am going to come out of it in a way that will give me back my self esteem, which is at rock bottom at the moment.
I omitted in my draft to ask the dentist what sort of funding plan do they operate, as I did see a poster on the wall when we went before, so I will put this in my letter.
I have even been looking at the possibility of implant dentures if it comes to it. The Colgate website has a lot of info, but I got panicky when I saw pictures of people with metal posts in their mouths and resembling Jaws from the Bond movies.
So, my next question is, does anyone have these, and if so, how have they found them and how do they live with them? Have you had 'normal' dentures before you went for these and if so, are these a huge improvement?
So many questions all the time, so sorry for being a nuisance, and again thanks for help, advice and support.
Kim xx