I'm In a state of panic!

[Sparkles]

Wow Kim, it sounds like it is as eventful as ever in your household..

Glad you had a good xmas and made it through into 2013, hope your bruises get better soon.

 

[Kim]

Oh me, oh my - I simply cannot get over the fact that I have been away from my own journal for over a month - given about a year ago, I never would have dreamed that could happen!!

Sooooo much has happened, so much happening - needless to say, I am not only creamy crackered, but also a year older to boot (it was my birthday on the 12th of this month, two days ago to be exact - will let you in on that as we go along ) I am not even going to start looking at the grey hair situation, or the pigeon feet thing will leave that for another time lol.

Well I guess I should start this off with my mouth and how I am going with that. On the whole great. On the half, the 'super glue' - still can't get my head around that one, some days are brilliant, others rubbish, but I really and truly do think that is because that is the way I am - a woos - not strong stomached and certainly no good with anything gooky or that - we don't all have the same make up, and mine is the same as my dad's, and sooooo totally different to that of my mum's and sister's, so hey ho, just have to take each and every day as it comes.

I need to use the 'super glue' when I know I am going to eat (there is a method in my madness) as if I am at work I can totally plan what I will have for lunch, and on this basis can work out give or take a blob or two, how much 'glue' I need. I am for the most part quite good with that, so know that when I have to clean it off, I am not gagging too badly. If we are going out, I tend ('fess up time' - I always do) to 'study' the menu big style on what is on offer. I haven't yet eaten a burger in public (sat in the car to but not in public hardly, not that I have a lot of burgers) and find that there are certain foods that 'stick' to my denture more than others.

I think that because I haven't had a full mouth of teeth for longer than I care to remember, the fact that I now do means I tend to have to scrutinize my mouth after I have eaten to make sure there are no foodie bits, and as just mentioned, some things are more clingy than others.

So, going away from that a bit, and not for any particular reason, but on Saturday, the 9th of February, was a big milestone in my life in that it was a year ago to the date that the whole thing that got me introduced to this site and started me off on my journey happened - my crown broke off when I was in Australia with my family That led on to me dipping into the depths of despair, being extremely sad, unhappy, miserable and emotional.

And then now here I am today......... just over a whole year on from the 'fall of the crown' and.... whoa! A whole different Kim. My confidence has slowly, and then picked up the pitched returned. There are times when I creep back into my shell, and that will I think always be the way, but for the most part - I'm back, far happier, far more 'gaggier' far more just me. Ali often says to me, that she can see how much happier I am with my new 'mouth', and she is right. Don't get me wrong, I do have days where I get emotional, wish for something that I never have had, am conscious of the odd (and rare) whistle that still creeps out, and feel that I not only have a mouth full of acrylic alongside a mouth full of food, and become very aware that I may look a tad different trying to negotiate all that going on in my mouth - but do you know what - no one that doesn't know me looks at me any differently, so I am guessing they just look on me being a 'middle aged' woman, with nothing untoward going on - people who do know me, don't look at me any differently, so I am guessing they have got used to me, and apart from the odd whistle that slips out when I do speak, good as.

When I compare where I was a year ago - there is no comparison. We went out at Christmas to our lovely local to us pub and hubby and Ali got some nuts. I tucked in big style, and how good was that. I have eaten apples - with their skin on I may add, and I am still into my silverskin onions with a passion, crispy roasties, steak - oh the list goes on and I am boring myself

FF to now - well, hubby - still has a dodgy tum, can't eat spicy food refuses to go to the doc's and just getting on with things as blokes do. Ali, wound all healed up, tho' she says it is still not the same as it was, but then again is anything?? Still working for rubbish Amazon, but been made permanent, but still on rubbish shifts, but working around the taking her/picking her up situation. Iain, ankle healed, never did go for physio, still have his crutches here with the tinsel on that we put on to cheer people up at Crimbo time - he's a lazy bugger, and I am refusing to do it, and only this week, after lots of tooing and froing, has started back on a phased return to work - been doing 4 hours a day this week, and sleeping for 20 - joke, but if you have a teenager you will get my drift.

Me - work - more rubbish - we are all working on the basis of if we don't do what we are asked when it is asked, we will be sacked - I think that is one particular manager's way of scaremongering and so - watch this space - me a bit sad at the moment - this time last year I was with my family in Oz, this time this I'm not, but have just found out via FB of all places, that my nephew and his wife have gone on a surprise visit to my brother and they are all together and I am here

On a brighter note, Carole, I managed to drive in the snow - reluctantly, fell out of a foodie shop in Ghent 'cos I didn't see the step, thankfully my hubby was looking the other way, and all the other people there will never ever - promise - see me again!
I had a fantabulous birthday weekend - it started on Saturday with Ali arranging for the big ones with their other halves to come around for a buffet night - should have been a party night but that's another story, courtesy of hubbies opinion....... - continued on Sunday with a chilled out day, then there was Monday when Ali took me out for lunch to our lovely (used to be my hideaway) pub, and then continued on Tuesday with being spoilt rotten with all that I asked for and more - I've now got a Kindle Fire - just need to learn how to use it and then went to a lovely Thai restaurant with everyone, and had a ball - ate my chicken satay starter and then my chook and cashew nuts mains - couldn't eat it all as my appetite is so much smaller now - beginning to look scrawny - but what I didn't eat, was hoovered up by the gutsy blokes of the group, so taking me back to my childhood, no waste - how cool is that

Am glad I have had the peace to be able to do all of this, and apols to you all for rambling. Am catching up with peeps, so please don't think I am ignoring you.

Thank you for being there this last year xxx

 

[Deejay]

You have given so much support for others like me who are just starting out on heir scary journey and now we see it come full circle for you and that gives us hope too, may you continue enjoying you new smile and all the benefits it brings may any hurdles you face be little ones and can I just say a big thanks I am just at the dental impressions stage of my dentures this site is fantastic and it's all down to people like you sharing you story the ups and downs, you are a winner

 

[carole]

Good to see you back, up and running Well of course I have had my fix of s

I have also had a birthday and now have an added number too. I am glad that you are managing to eat nuts and apples with skin on. You are doing better than me I won't bite an apple skin or no skin and I won't eat nuts either. Or if I do it has to be one by one and it takes ages so it isn't worth the trouble or the time it takes. So to you.

It is really nice to have you back with us.

 

[Kim]

Ock aye - picking that sort of language up from my hubby - luverly hey - it is good to be back - I just sooooo knew you would have the hissy fits and be all the while - when was your's missus - mine is always the twelth of Feb does your's chage I am thinking that my life is a soap so I may try selling it to the Beeb - and Carole, I am sooooo upset - not - at the way you squeak to me lol - big hugs to you all xooxoxoxo

 

[letsconnect]

A belated Happy Birthday to both of you !!!

Great to see you back Kim and I second everything that Deejay has said .

And of course, thanks for the (hugely entertaining, as per usual ) update - I've been missing reading your diary .

 

[Kim]

OMG deejay - you brought a tear to my eye. Funny isn't it, but I don't think any of us feel we are doing anything other that what would just come naturally - for me anyhow. It is always sooooo good to know that you are not alone during this particular journey, and we can always try and compare other things, but I think that where this fear of the dentist, dental work and everything else that goes with that, it falls into a totally category, and you are fairly limited to those you can turn to.

So this site is a Godsend for lots of us, and long may it continue to be so.

And thank you Carole and lets for your kind and welcoming words. It's good to be back amongst friends
xx

 

[carole]

Thanks kim and letsconnect my birthday was on the 28 Jan mine stays on the same date too funny that.

 

[Kim]

Aw ok - so what about the age thing - stay the same or change year by year xx

 

[Deejay]

OMG deejay - you brought a tear to my eye. Funny isn't it, but I don't think any of us feel we are doing anything other that what would just come naturally - for me anyhow. It is always sooooo good to know that you are not alone during this particular journey, and we can always try and compare other things, but I think that where this fear of the dentist, dental work and everything else that goes with that, it falls into a totally category, and you are fairly limited to those you can turn to.

So this site is a Godsend for lots of us, and long may it continue to be so.

And thank you Carole and lets for your kind and welcoming words. It's good to be back amongst friends
xx

It's a wonderful site but only works when people tell their stories so others can gain support and insights into work they are waiting for and chat while they are waiting and meet some wonderful people, I am now more addicted to this site more than other social media pages and my favourite game and I love the smileys x x

 

[carole]

Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll kim my head stays at 5 but unfortunately my body ages the extra years. Pants

How about you stay or age

 

[Kim]

Hah! I've been 34 (my favourite age) for the last 20 years the only thing that changes is the number of grey hairs that keep popping up on my head - and now also my eyebrows

Off out in a bit for some lunch - can't decide what to have yet tho', but will let you know.

 

[chickenjen]

Nice to see you back, Kim!!!!
Oh, I hate the grey hairs in the eyebrows!! My left eyebrow is the one that has the grey hairs, NOT the right one, so it looks a bit goofy if I don't color the left one with pencil, LOL!!!
When will you post some more of your recipes? I've been looking for them................??????

 

[carole]

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm it's amazing where those grey little hairs appear you can only dye so much

 

[chickenjen]

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm it's amazing where those grey little hairs appear you can only dye so much

I have a lot of grey in my hair, but luckily I'm a blonde so the grey kind of blends in and looks like a highlight................that is, if you don't look TOO close
BTW, happy belated birthday to you guys (Carole and Kim).

 

[Kim]

Jen, I will put some recipes up when I can - I feel really awful as things are so hectic what with work and home - never seem to have much time to myself anymore - I have just recently got an i-phone and kindle fire and am not even getting time to see how to use them

Off the subject with gobby bits, but I have been f'booking my rebel brother in Oz this last few days, and have learnt to realise that as much of an arse as I felt he was when I was younger, he has actually turned into a human being, and has let me open up to him and him open up to me - still haven't had the courage to tell him I have a new 'gob' but then I am learning to realise that there are certain people you may need to tell and certain people you don't and if and when the time comes that you do, then so be it.

And to today and yesterday - I have a sore mouth Well, not sore, sore, but I know that one side of my mouth is there if that makes sense, feels like I have a birth of a bone coming up - then I am wondering if it the side of my mouth (which it is) that I keep cracking pickled onions up with, so will wait and see - I hope it isn't like one of my mates at work who has a partial and then got a gum infection and was told that she couldn't wear her denture......... - that would send me into hybernation.....

 

[carole]

Oh the last thing you want is to be told you can't wear the dentures. It's nice to see you

 

[Kim]

Well now, I couldn't let today go by without marking it in some way or another. It was a year ago today by the date, that I went to my first opinion dentist!!!! Can you believe that? Firstly, I can't believe just how quickly the time has flown, and secondly how far I have come with my situation.

I've been back at work for five months now, and am still not used to it. We have more work than ever what with staff cutbacks and so feel tired more than I have for a long time. Then, because of my birthday in February and me getting myself a new i-phone, I am all 'techied' out trying to get the hang of all these new things

Still, I have a few days off now, so will hopefully be able to catch up some more on here. I had to go into work for a couple of hours this morning, and when I finished, I decided to go get a few bits, and treat myself to a Mackie D's as haven't had one for ages.

I had 'glued' my bottom denture ever so slightly this morning, as hadn't planned on getting anything to eat, and thought all would be well, so ordered a filet of fish. It was really hot and the bread sooooo fresh and soft, so I took a bite, and the bread 'glued' itself to my teeth, and then because of having so little glue, my bottom denture started doing a little dance all of it's own in my mouth Carole you would have loved it! And I can honestly say, that it is nigh on impossible to try and chew with one finger in your mouth holding the denture still Good job I had parked away from everyone else, so no one could see how pathetic I was. I had eaten most of it, but decided to give up the ghost on that one. So a bit of advice for all you denture wearer's out there who need a little help with securing your denture, if you are going to be eating really fresh bread, be a little heavier handed with the glue

I still don't like using the 'glue' but have got more used to it now.

The tube of glue that I have is supposed to only last a few weeks, but I am chuffed to say that I still have it, and have had my denture since October, so don't think that's bad going So when I think of what my mouth was like this time last year, and what it is like now, there is no comparison!

xx

 

[letsconnect]

Is it really a year today since that first consult ?? Time flies so quickly it's not funny...

Time for a celebration - you have been (and you are) a real inspiration for so many people here

(P.S. I was thinking of you while making a vegetarian version of your sausage casserole a couple of days ago, using Cauldron Lincolnshire sausages - it worked really well !)

 

[Kim]

I know, how time flies when you are having fun.....

Bless you for that - hope in some ways I help some people. Seems like there are a lot of people going through what I have, or similar, and I am amazed at how their coping mechanisms kick in, so well done to those of you who are going through that and coping fantabulously

How funny is that, that you have said about a veggie version of the ragout - I have been trying so many more veggie things (most of them don't stick to your teeth and dislodge your 'gob') and not because I can't eat meatier things with my new mouth, but because I have lost a fair old bit of weight, and my tummy just cant handle quantities any more. I was really pleased to see today that Ask restaurants offer on their pasta dishes, half portions with salad and it is cheaper than the full portion without - only because I can't eat what I used to

Will have to give the veggie sausage ragout a try, was it really filling, or just pleasingly pleasant?

Good to hear from you lets xx