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This morning, a piece of a tooth from somewhere in the back of my mouth fell out and I spat it into my hand. My first reaction was to flinch in pain/panic and look around quickly to see if David saw what happened.
Then I realized that he had already gone off to work so I was safe. I mean, I think I can find the place where it came from and it doesn't hurt so much now and if I don't tell him, he will never know.
I just think it's for the best if I don't say anything to him because I know he would freak out if he found out, start asking me all these questions, bringing up bad memories and badgering me that I go see my dentist to get it checked out. He doesn't mean to be intense, he just gets concerned, but it comes off an intense. I know I have put him through hell during the last round of treatment with my PTSD and dental phobia acting up at the same time.
I just don't want to deal with this right now. I just want to go be in denial. But I've been busted before for not saying anything when I was having tooth pain and then my face swells up. And to David, it looks like a sudden acute crisis of toothache when in fact it was a problem that had started a while before and steadily got worse.
I know this is not exactly a dentist support need... I don't like having to keep things from David but I get scared and I emotionally shut down and go into denial. David hates it when I keep things from him. He has said that to me plenty of times, especially when we first met and I wanted him to like me and I wanted him to think I didn't have dental phobia.
Thanks for listening.
Then I realized that he had already gone off to work so I was safe. I mean, I think I can find the place where it came from and it doesn't hurt so much now and if I don't tell him, he will never know.
I just think it's for the best if I don't say anything to him because I know he would freak out if he found out, start asking me all these questions, bringing up bad memories and badgering me that I go see my dentist to get it checked out. He doesn't mean to be intense, he just gets concerned, but it comes off an intense. I know I have put him through hell during the last round of treatment with my PTSD and dental phobia acting up at the same time.
I just don't want to deal with this right now. I just want to go be in denial. But I've been busted before for not saying anything when I was having tooth pain and then my face swells up. And to David, it looks like a sudden acute crisis of toothache when in fact it was a problem that had started a while before and steadily got worse.
I know this is not exactly a dentist support need... I don't like having to keep things from David but I get scared and I emotionally shut down and go into denial. David hates it when I keep things from him. He has said that to me plenty of times, especially when we first met and I wanted him to like me and I wanted him to think I didn't have dental phobia.
Thanks for listening.
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