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elfduchess
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First, I've gotta say that just reading some of the things here has made me feel oddly better. Not even just the success stories, but just knowing that I'm not alone in all this. (Even if my worries are a bit different than what I've read.)
So, I've only been to the dentist three times before in my life. (And the first time I don't even remember it.) Once was about ten-twelve years ago to get an extra fang removed (and it wasn't a bad experience, but it was also pretty simple and I already knew the dentist. He's since died so I can't go back to him) and the other time was earlier this week when I went to get my teeth x-rayed and got a referral to a dental surgeon as the dentist I went to doesn't do that. (It wasn't a bad experience, either. The receptionists and technicians were great, but the dentist himself was a little...abrasive.)
I've got an appointment for next week, Tuesday, and...it's not even the surgery itself that I'm nervous about. (At least, not really. Sure, I'm a little worried about the sedation (that I requested) not taking, because I know myself well enough to know if I don't go now and get it done, it will never happen. (I told my mom to tell me that, no matter what I say, she has to tell me I have to go.) And they need to come out because they are partially erupted and will never completely erupt.)
For me though, the worst of it is everything that leads up to it. (And, I know myself and I know that I will be fine when the exam/surgery, whatever, actually starts. It's just the lead-up. You know, panicking for nearly a week.) I have social anxiety, so having to deal with people I don't know isn't going to be fun. I'm super worried because my appointment is just before one and unless I get up earlier, I won't be getting breakfast - and skipping meals makes me feel dizzy, but if I get up earlier that just leaves me more time to panic. I also get migraines and I'm so worried that I'll get a migraine that day - not to even go into my panic about my mouth being numbed because migraines make me feel numb, so that will remind me of one.
The office I'm going to is in a town I've never been to before - so that's adding to my general anxiety. Also, I don't have a photo id and I was told I need to take one and I literally do not have one so I'm just hoping that's for insurance reasons (which I also do not have - so there's some worry about the cost, too). Then I'm worried about the pain and the recovery. (And, strangely enough, I'm worried that I won't have enough stuff to keep my attention and I'll be bored, because I probably will be home from Tuesday to the next Monday. Thankfully, time to recover isn't a problem.) (And the fact that I'll have a follow-up the next week.) (...And I can't help but feel a little guilty that my mom's the one that has to take me and that means her store has to be closed the entire day. That guilt's compounded by the fact that in my family you don't go to the doctor unless you're dying. <---Only slightly hyperbolic. And, in fact, I know my father would tell me not to go, and I'm not really sure my mother approves. So...yeah, that makes it a little difficult.)
I feel so strange saying it, but the thing that bothers me the least is the actual surgery because, hopefully, I'll be totally out of it for that. I'm trying to distract myself, but at the same time, I'm trying to get prepared. You know, I'm going to be stocking up on food I can eat and getting books/games/shows lined up. Tomorrow/or Monday I'm going to read everything pertaining to wisdom teeth extraction on the dentist's website, so that should take some of the edginess off.
If you've actually reached the end off all this, thanks. I just needed someplace that I could vent/word vomit that I wouldn't be judged for the way I feel - and I am super glad I found this place.
So, I've only been to the dentist three times before in my life. (And the first time I don't even remember it.) Once was about ten-twelve years ago to get an extra fang removed (and it wasn't a bad experience, but it was also pretty simple and I already knew the dentist. He's since died so I can't go back to him) and the other time was earlier this week when I went to get my teeth x-rayed and got a referral to a dental surgeon as the dentist I went to doesn't do that. (It wasn't a bad experience, either. The receptionists and technicians were great, but the dentist himself was a little...abrasive.)
I've got an appointment for next week, Tuesday, and...it's not even the surgery itself that I'm nervous about. (At least, not really. Sure, I'm a little worried about the sedation (that I requested) not taking, because I know myself well enough to know if I don't go now and get it done, it will never happen. (I told my mom to tell me that, no matter what I say, she has to tell me I have to go.) And they need to come out because they are partially erupted and will never completely erupt.)
For me though, the worst of it is everything that leads up to it. (And, I know myself and I know that I will be fine when the exam/surgery, whatever, actually starts. It's just the lead-up. You know, panicking for nearly a week.) I have social anxiety, so having to deal with people I don't know isn't going to be fun. I'm super worried because my appointment is just before one and unless I get up earlier, I won't be getting breakfast - and skipping meals makes me feel dizzy, but if I get up earlier that just leaves me more time to panic. I also get migraines and I'm so worried that I'll get a migraine that day - not to even go into my panic about my mouth being numbed because migraines make me feel numb, so that will remind me of one.
The office I'm going to is in a town I've never been to before - so that's adding to my general anxiety. Also, I don't have a photo id and I was told I need to take one and I literally do not have one so I'm just hoping that's for insurance reasons (which I also do not have - so there's some worry about the cost, too). Then I'm worried about the pain and the recovery. (And, strangely enough, I'm worried that I won't have enough stuff to keep my attention and I'll be bored, because I probably will be home from Tuesday to the next Monday. Thankfully, time to recover isn't a problem.) (And the fact that I'll have a follow-up the next week.) (...And I can't help but feel a little guilty that my mom's the one that has to take me and that means her store has to be closed the entire day. That guilt's compounded by the fact that in my family you don't go to the doctor unless you're dying. <---Only slightly hyperbolic. And, in fact, I know my father would tell me not to go, and I'm not really sure my mother approves. So...yeah, that makes it a little difficult.)
I feel so strange saying it, but the thing that bothers me the least is the actual surgery because, hopefully, I'll be totally out of it for that. I'm trying to distract myself, but at the same time, I'm trying to get prepared. You know, I'm going to be stocking up on food I can eat and getting books/games/shows lined up. Tomorrow/or Monday I'm going to read everything pertaining to wisdom teeth extraction on the dentist's website, so that should take some of the edginess off.
If you've actually reached the end off all this, thanks. I just needed someplace that I could vent/word vomit that I wouldn't be judged for the way I feel - and I am super glad I found this place.