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Spider and MountainMama, both your posts are helping me today. Thank you so much. 
Spider, your post gave me a much needed laugh, honestly. You sharing your spiral with me helped me feel less crazy (because it sounded exactly like my own). And to answer your questions regarding the dentists: They all seem very quick to draw conclusions and just suck at explaining anything and I don't trust them. But the one I just saw indicated to me that what I am experiencing can definitely be explained by a simple high spot in my bite that needs adjusting, but that it could also be more serious things. Basically it would have to be a process of elimination if things don't start feeling better. Not very comforting.
MountainMama, "bruised" is a really good description of what it feels like "normally" right now. Though yesterday, after I bit down weird or something and had a rush of pain, I could literally feel it the rest of the day. It was like it was throbbing, but not in a painful way... just, like, swollen, or something. And my jaw joints hurt all night. Anyway, I am comforted by your saying that it could just really need some time...
So today's update: everything is quite sore since eating lunch yesterday when I had the randomly intense pain while eating a bite of spaghetti. It's as if I just bit down a certain way and it made everything flare up. My whole jaw, the tooth, the teeth next to it. My fear is that the tooth underneath the crown is messed up. Cracked, or something, despite feeling completely fine until the permanent crown was on. My fear is that he adjusted my whole bite on that side and now it will always have problems and never be quite right. Also that all of this will lead to an eventual extraction which will mean I've spent tons of money for no reason, experienced tons of pain for no reason, and then I'll be absolutely terrified of my already somewhat spaced out teeth shifting and looking really awful. Or more teeth will get damaged. Or I'll try to get an implant which will go wrong, or something. ETc etc.
I am certain I make things worse, too, by constantly "testing" it. Pressing on it, or eating something with it, rather than just leaving it entirely alone for a few days. Why am I doing that?! Regardless of which came first, I definitely sense inflammation in the tooth and in my jaw today. Everything is just hurting. I'm taking lots of ibuprofen, but I can't say how helpful it really is.
After unloading on my fiancee, she told me that she thinks I need to give things more time to heal before running back to the dentist yet again. She pointed out that I have a history of taking longer to recover from physical problems anyway, plus the clenching and eating and all that (not to mention my mental stress)... and then I get an adjustment and it makes everything sore again and I panic again and it's become a cycle. I keep making "plans" of when I will address it in certain ways because it gives me a false sense of control over things, but really it just ends up giving me a deadline to feel better by that is completely unrealistic. I am so desperate for this to be resolved that I keep acting like something magical is going to make it all completely fixed suddenly. Hell, it could be all right now if I just wait a little and see? (I wish.)
I just want to be able to eat without some sort of pain again. I miss enjoying food and eating, it's impacting my quality of life. It is very real that this is impacting my willingness to even try eating. I've lost weight since the root canal. I haven't eaten without pain since November. This seems insane to me. Why can't I just eat without pain?!?! Am I stuck to SOUP forever? Is this my life now? (More spiraling.)
So we have the long weekend coming up (Memorial Day in US) and I know that it will be days that I can't contact the dentist. So my fiancee is encouraging me to just make it through these days and see how it feels. Another deadline, but... Doing that is really hard but I'm going to give it a try. I hope I can enjoy my two days off work without being sick with anxiety yet again. I will try not to keep eating on it. I will take ibuprofen. I will try to allow it to recover some. And then on Tuesday, when the dentist is open again, if things haven't shown any improvement, I can go back. And I'll use you guys for support.
Thank you all for showing so much caring by even reading. You guys are AWESOME.

Spider, your post gave me a much needed laugh, honestly. You sharing your spiral with me helped me feel less crazy (because it sounded exactly like my own). And to answer your questions regarding the dentists: They all seem very quick to draw conclusions and just suck at explaining anything and I don't trust them. But the one I just saw indicated to me that what I am experiencing can definitely be explained by a simple high spot in my bite that needs adjusting, but that it could also be more serious things. Basically it would have to be a process of elimination if things don't start feeling better. Not very comforting.
MountainMama, "bruised" is a really good description of what it feels like "normally" right now. Though yesterday, after I bit down weird or something and had a rush of pain, I could literally feel it the rest of the day. It was like it was throbbing, but not in a painful way... just, like, swollen, or something. And my jaw joints hurt all night. Anyway, I am comforted by your saying that it could just really need some time...
So today's update: everything is quite sore since eating lunch yesterday when I had the randomly intense pain while eating a bite of spaghetti. It's as if I just bit down a certain way and it made everything flare up. My whole jaw, the tooth, the teeth next to it. My fear is that the tooth underneath the crown is messed up. Cracked, or something, despite feeling completely fine until the permanent crown was on. My fear is that he adjusted my whole bite on that side and now it will always have problems and never be quite right. Also that all of this will lead to an eventual extraction which will mean I've spent tons of money for no reason, experienced tons of pain for no reason, and then I'll be absolutely terrified of my already somewhat spaced out teeth shifting and looking really awful. Or more teeth will get damaged. Or I'll try to get an implant which will go wrong, or something. ETc etc.
I am certain I make things worse, too, by constantly "testing" it. Pressing on it, or eating something with it, rather than just leaving it entirely alone for a few days. Why am I doing that?! Regardless of which came first, I definitely sense inflammation in the tooth and in my jaw today. Everything is just hurting. I'm taking lots of ibuprofen, but I can't say how helpful it really is.
After unloading on my fiancee, she told me that she thinks I need to give things more time to heal before running back to the dentist yet again. She pointed out that I have a history of taking longer to recover from physical problems anyway, plus the clenching and eating and all that (not to mention my mental stress)... and then I get an adjustment and it makes everything sore again and I panic again and it's become a cycle. I keep making "plans" of when I will address it in certain ways because it gives me a false sense of control over things, but really it just ends up giving me a deadline to feel better by that is completely unrealistic. I am so desperate for this to be resolved that I keep acting like something magical is going to make it all completely fixed suddenly. Hell, it could be all right now if I just wait a little and see? (I wish.)
I just want to be able to eat without some sort of pain again. I miss enjoying food and eating, it's impacting my quality of life. It is very real that this is impacting my willingness to even try eating. I've lost weight since the root canal. I haven't eaten without pain since November. This seems insane to me. Why can't I just eat without pain?!?! Am I stuck to SOUP forever? Is this my life now? (More spiraling.)
So we have the long weekend coming up (Memorial Day in US) and I know that it will be days that I can't contact the dentist. So my fiancee is encouraging me to just make it through these days and see how it feels. Another deadline, but... Doing that is really hard but I'm going to give it a try. I hope I can enjoy my two days off work without being sick with anxiety yet again. I will try not to keep eating on it. I will take ibuprofen. I will try to allow it to recover some. And then on Tuesday, when the dentist is open again, if things haven't shown any improvement, I can go back. And I'll use you guys for support.
Thank you all for showing so much caring by even reading. You guys are AWESOME.