- May 3, 2021
I have become so consumed by my fear of the dentist/losing teeth. I finally made an appointment after a few years with a new dentist I found that specializes in patients like myself who are filled with anxiety, the appt was just to meet her to see if I feel like I can trust her and how I feel about having her work on me. The meeting went well but I was very nervous and stumbling over my word and don’t feel like I got to explain my trauma/the traumatic events that have happened throughout my life, I am hoping she understands how hard this is for me. I do have a concern with molar #14 (my recent post before this one is all about this tooth) that has had a crown on it for almost a decade. I haven’t had any issues with it pain wise ever, but more recently I can tell it is loose. It has not come out but I can tell when chewing that it feels “off”. I am absolutely petrified to lose this tooth as I don’t have any other molars behind it. I should mention that I have a slight periodontal “pocket” in between that tooth and the one in front of it that my previous dentist was “keeping an eye on” but was not completely concerned about at the time, but I can imagine it has gotten worse since then, that is why I jump the to the conclusion that I could likely lose this tooth. I used to be missing the same molar on the other side til I got a bridge and I remember how self conscious I was about it and how I was always worried if people would see it when I smiled, talked, etc. I am sick at the thought of that happening again. I have an exam with the new dentist on the 21st but I’m the mean time I am stressing so much about this especially because I am leaving for New Year’s Eve for a small trip and I always have increased anxiety when leaving home that something like it falling out will happen while I am away from home. I know that sounds ridiculous. I just have such a fear of that happening. I have been in therapy and seen a psychiatrist over this dental fear issue and I feel I have made some progress since I was able to make an appt. But earlier I was chewing and the crown felt “high” and I could tell the problem was likely getting worse. And immediately I had to take an Ativan and get into bed because it completely debilitates me. Any words of advice or encouragement would help immensely…especially with this trip coming up…thanks for reading..