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doogie
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I'm not new to the forum, I've been here for 3 years. I just made a new account to remain completely anonymous.
When I was a young child, I was sexually abused by my dentist. I forgot it even happened because it was just so horrible. I had a flash-back at the age of 12, and remember only part of what had happened. I didn't realize it was a dentist that did it until now. I began to get very phobic of going to dentists and had no idea why. My life started to fall apart and I had uncontrolled anxiety and no idea why I was scared of everything in the world.
3 years ago, I found this site, and something drew me to the article on survivors of abuse. I related completely. But I didn't want to believe it.
A couple months ago, I found a list of behaviors displayed by children who were sexually abused. I related to about 90% of them. I asked my parents for the name of my dentist so that I could do some internet sleuthing and see if he's been caught. They have no idea who I went to. I started googling everything I could. No results matched. Then, out of nowhere, I get a letter from a dentist. I remembered his name. The letter said he was retiring, blah blah blah, replacement, blah blah blah..." So I googled his name. Saw his picture. I started crying. I knew it was him. I drove to the office and flashbacks started happening. I don't remember anything about the abuse, but I remember driving there when I was little. I think I must have been sedated. But my gut instincts were telling me it was this guy. I drive by his office every day to work and it's always stood out to me, like it was trying to tell me something. Now I know.
I'm very upset he was never caught. I don't think I was the only victim. I have found closure by just knowing why I had odd behavior and a fear of dentists. I'm a weird case for dental phobia in that I'm not scared of teeth or needles or drills. Just the actual dentist himself.
I want to start healing and I think I've found the right start. I want to talk to my dentist and tell him. I've never actually talked to my dentist or even seen what he looks like because I keep my eyes covered at all times. He's never said a word to me because I told the nurse to tell him not to.
I have no idea what to say to him. Should I just straight up say it? I'm so unsure. I don't want him to freak out
When I was a young child, I was sexually abused by my dentist. I forgot it even happened because it was just so horrible. I had a flash-back at the age of 12, and remember only part of what had happened. I didn't realize it was a dentist that did it until now. I began to get very phobic of going to dentists and had no idea why. My life started to fall apart and I had uncontrolled anxiety and no idea why I was scared of everything in the world.
3 years ago, I found this site, and something drew me to the article on survivors of abuse. I related completely. But I didn't want to believe it.
A couple months ago, I found a list of behaviors displayed by children who were sexually abused. I related to about 90% of them. I asked my parents for the name of my dentist so that I could do some internet sleuthing and see if he's been caught. They have no idea who I went to. I started googling everything I could. No results matched. Then, out of nowhere, I get a letter from a dentist. I remembered his name. The letter said he was retiring, blah blah blah, replacement, blah blah blah..." So I googled his name. Saw his picture. I started crying. I knew it was him. I drove to the office and flashbacks started happening. I don't remember anything about the abuse, but I remember driving there when I was little. I think I must have been sedated. But my gut instincts were telling me it was this guy. I drive by his office every day to work and it's always stood out to me, like it was trying to tell me something. Now I know.
I'm very upset he was never caught. I don't think I was the only victim. I have found closure by just knowing why I had odd behavior and a fear of dentists. I'm a weird case for dental phobia in that I'm not scared of teeth or needles or drills. Just the actual dentist himself.
I want to start healing and I think I've found the right start. I want to talk to my dentist and tell him. I've never actually talked to my dentist or even seen what he looks like because I keep my eyes covered at all times. He's never said a word to me because I told the nurse to tell him not to.
I have no idea what to say to him. Should I just straight up say it? I'm so unsure. I don't want him to freak out