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Meichan
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..And I wonder if I will regret it, but I'm in such a state of anxiety, that I wrote the email to them anyways.
3-4 weeks ago I noticed a small absess on my gum. My tooth didn't hurt (it was root canaled). I had no other symptoms. Didn't hurt brushing or anything, but then the 'bite' felt not painful, but slightly off. I searched around the area and noticed a shallow lump at the top of my gums and that they were inflamed.
At the same time, my father was in ICU, intubated and in renal failure. I was told he was not going to survive, and I am in charge of making his medical decisions. Because it didn't hurt, and because I was waiting with my family daily for the dreaded phone call, I pushed off finding a new dentist (I moved to a new city so needed a new one).
I got in 2-3 weeks later. I told the dentist before I walked in that I had crippling dental anxiety. Never seems to make a difference with them. But I tried.
So I ended up with an asymptomatic something from an old root canal. It's eaten away at some of my bone and my gums are so enflamed that I have 7mm "pockets" (only on one tooth and the adjacent tooth). But teeth are firm and not loose.
I had prepared myself for the one tooth being a goner. But the dentist told me the OTHER tooth could be a goner too and it devastated me. And she went on about my gums.
Thing is, the rest of my gums look perfectly healthy. It's whatever this infection is that is making a certain area funky. But it's in my smile zone. And I'm TERRIFIED.
I can't eat. i won't eat. I don't sleep w/o pills. I'm incapacitated and can't work or focus. I was referred to an Endodentist on Monday, (4 days from now) and I'm petrified.
But I isolated my terror to the concept that I will look like a toothless hag. That even money will not be able to restor a normal smile and I'll live the rest of my life looking and feeling horrible about myself. I googled ( I know- I shouldnt) but now I really know what I have. I just don't know how badly I have it.
So I actually WROTE my new dentist. I probably sounded like an absolute crazy woman. I was just honest and raw- and asked the manager, if she could ask the Dentist, if dental implants would be *possible* for me failing all else. I just need to know I will not end up looking like a meth addict. I spent so much money and so many years working on my dental phobia and I had it pretty much licked with my old dentist. But she's 3 hours away.
It's inconcievable to me that such damage can happen in 3 years. And I know I should have just pushed my life aside and been diligent. But with lockdowns, and both my parents critically ill, it was just one anxiety to heavy.
So now yeah. Im waiting for a reply- and let's see if they make fun of me, or think I'm a screwball, or even worse, give me an automated "We have referred you to an Endo so no comment" so I can writhe in the agony of my Mind for 4 more days.
Why am I like this? Why is it so hard? WHy do teeth SUCK so much?
3-4 weeks ago I noticed a small absess on my gum. My tooth didn't hurt (it was root canaled). I had no other symptoms. Didn't hurt brushing or anything, but then the 'bite' felt not painful, but slightly off. I searched around the area and noticed a shallow lump at the top of my gums and that they were inflamed.
At the same time, my father was in ICU, intubated and in renal failure. I was told he was not going to survive, and I am in charge of making his medical decisions. Because it didn't hurt, and because I was waiting with my family daily for the dreaded phone call, I pushed off finding a new dentist (I moved to a new city so needed a new one).
I got in 2-3 weeks later. I told the dentist before I walked in that I had crippling dental anxiety. Never seems to make a difference with them. But I tried.
So I ended up with an asymptomatic something from an old root canal. It's eaten away at some of my bone and my gums are so enflamed that I have 7mm "pockets" (only on one tooth and the adjacent tooth). But teeth are firm and not loose.
I had prepared myself for the one tooth being a goner. But the dentist told me the OTHER tooth could be a goner too and it devastated me. And she went on about my gums.
Thing is, the rest of my gums look perfectly healthy. It's whatever this infection is that is making a certain area funky. But it's in my smile zone. And I'm TERRIFIED.
I can't eat. i won't eat. I don't sleep w/o pills. I'm incapacitated and can't work or focus. I was referred to an Endodentist on Monday, (4 days from now) and I'm petrified.
But I isolated my terror to the concept that I will look like a toothless hag. That even money will not be able to restor a normal smile and I'll live the rest of my life looking and feeling horrible about myself. I googled ( I know- I shouldnt) but now I really know what I have. I just don't know how badly I have it.
So I actually WROTE my new dentist. I probably sounded like an absolute crazy woman. I was just honest and raw- and asked the manager, if she could ask the Dentist, if dental implants would be *possible* for me failing all else. I just need to know I will not end up looking like a meth addict. I spent so much money and so many years working on my dental phobia and I had it pretty much licked with my old dentist. But she's 3 hours away.
It's inconcievable to me that such damage can happen in 3 years. And I know I should have just pushed my life aside and been diligent. But with lockdowns, and both my parents critically ill, it was just one anxiety to heavy.
So now yeah. Im waiting for a reply- and let's see if they make fun of me, or think I'm a screwball, or even worse, give me an automated "We have referred you to an Endo so no comment" so I can writhe in the agony of my Mind for 4 more days.
Why am I like this? Why is it so hard? WHy do teeth SUCK so much?