I need to get two parcial dentures and periodontal treatment, really scared

[scaredyduck92]

Hello, I am new to this forum, I always meant to register and post but I guess I also chickened out of this too. I'm 34 years old and I always had a terrible phobia to the dentist. That's why I never went as a child. I also had a very difficult life (I suffered all kinds of abuse) and had to deal with depression all my life, so I didn't take much care of my mouth. It's embarassing to say but... I think y'all are not going to judge me here (I hope). So, I had a horrible pain a few days ago and I had to go to ER and then to the dentist. He gave me the budget. It's... very expensive. He told me I'll need to wear two partial dentures and I'll need periodontal treatment and a root canal. The appointment is tomorrow, I'm scared shitless. The thing is, my tooth broke while eating yesterday, I think below the gumline because I feel something weird inside my gum. So... I gues they'll have to extract that tooth instead... They already extracted a lof ot my teeth, I don't have any molars and eating is very hard. Before, I had a dentist that I trusted a lot, I would even laugh while leaving. I even got a bottom partial denture from him but... I couldn't eat, all the time the food would get stuck under the denture and I was so embarrassed and sad that... I stopped wearing it as soon as I got it. Thing is... Now I don't have any bone for implants, that's what all dentists tell me and that... Made me really sad... I even went multiple times to get my dentures adjusted to no avail. Now... I fear it's going to be the same... Spend money for nothing. I feel so sad, so ugly... So depressed... I told this new dentist "Who is going to love me without teeth?" and he smirked and I didn't like that. He doesn't come off as very nice to me, idk, maybe I'm judging him without knowing him. So, tomorrow I would have the root canal but I guess now with the tooth broken it'll be an extraction... And I don't have any benzos . I don't think I can make it without benzos. I'm really scared of the anesthesia shots, I'm scared of the pain of the extraction, I'm scared of the anesthesia not working because of the infection and I'm... Scared of losing another tooth... I feel hopeless, Like... I'm just sleeping every single day, all day. Just in bed, I don't want to do anything else. I'm so freaking stupid! It's all my fault! And I'm very young . I've stopped talking to people, I was even talking to this really cool girl but I was just telling her every single day that I didn't do anything, just lay in bed, that I'm in a lot of pain... She's going to be bored of me. I just keep asking to myself "How is she gonna like me without barely any teeth?" She has really nice teeth. I mean, sorry for telling y'all stuff you are not interested of . I can't afford the budget and the periodontal treatment, the dentures... My mom doesn't wanna help me and my sister even hitted me when I was crying in pain and had to go to ER... I need to find a job, I was fired of mine some days ago, if I knew... I wouldn't have spent the money . Also the drill terrifies me.

Sorry for bothering y'all... Also, sorry because english is not my first language and my english is really bad and I'm very self-conscious about it.

Hugs: ScaredyDuck

 

[GinaBambina]

How are you doing today? What’s going on? There’s a lot of people on here just like you. Don’t be so hard on yourself.
Do you have good anchor teeth left or would it be better to just get the full denture? My dentist was pushing me for root canals and teeth were breaking and almost got a partial. Good thing I didn’t because they broke at gum line. I would have wasted a lot of money. It was way cheaper to get the denture instead of partial.
If a friend doesn’t like you because of your teeth she wasn’t much of a friend to begin with in my opinion.