Oh my goodness I've done it ?????
Today was the toughest day in many many decades, I cried before I went up to the dentists room, I cried when I entered the room and cried after (the latter with joy) Hun she was amazing, she totally got me, she eased my worries I told her I was so embarrsed the dental nurse was amazing too.
Sooooo she's said with the front next to big tooth she thinks she can fill it (how crazy eh!!) she said on paperwork I have to have 5 extracted (which I presumed it would be more) she said the front ones need filling but she thins she can do those, ok so she's going to give me a plate for missing ones at back etc, she also said it will be done by Feb when I go to oz (I cried with relief) she can see I'm terribly on a tight time limit so wanted me to go back asap to start work, first things are a scale and polish, she said there's a lot of plaque build up she thinks that's due to me Winn f so nervous about them falling out if I brush harder she said they won't so I'm to start on that asap, (I'm off to buy new wash and brush tomorrow) she said at same time she will do X-rays and fill the trouble tooth, (my partner will come with me) she then will move onto impressions of my mouth and then I presume she will extract she said hopefully as they ones at back are broken she feels it will be an easy enough job as they are already so low down but again a lot hangs on results of X-rays. There's about 5 compression fillings (I don't know if that's the right word I will check that as I asked for a copy of what work will be done so I could tell you lol) but yes it's a big job but she's confident she can make me confident again, I told her I don't leave the house I feel crap etc and she was so beautifully understanding I couldn't have asked for a better appointment I don't feel! I'm just so stupidly excited, I know the nerves will come but the excitement is more than nerves so I hold out hope, she also said clicking in jaw is as I thought and down to loosing teeth she feels that will be better once I have plate etc in! I can see a new beginning and tonight I'm buying a lipstick, I don't wear it due to not wanting to seee my teeth or draw attention I've said to my partner that i will apply that lipstick the final day of my treatment and it's something to look forward too and eveegtime I feel scared I will look at it and think 'you've brought this and NEED to wear it at the end you can do it!!' Mind over matter maybe there but I feel it may help so I'm going with it right now lol! Again thanks so so much for helping me this has helped me more than you will ever know I cannot thank you enough x x x