what a day. Need to vent

[shell025]

So after 4 months i eventually went to my dentist this morning with my mother. I was crying before I even got in and felt like I was about to have a panic attack. I literally have never felt my heart race so face. It took about 5 mins before I sat in the chair and he had a look. He said I needed an x ray with rattled me even more.

So x ray taken and I have to have 2 extractions and a root canal. My dentist is also going to give my teeth a deep clean. I need to have two treatment sessions, both of which I will be sedated.

I don't think i'm even looking for advice or asking a question. I think i just needed to get all that out. I am currently in work and I am unable to concentrate on anything because of the stress of the morning and that i'm exhausted from it.

Its also costing me ALOT of money. I guess its my own fault really. I should have gone sooner. I'm booked in for a week and a half time. Then 5 days later i am going on holiday. I hope i'll be feeling ok.

 

[Angeldove]

Hi Shell,
You're going down the road I've been going down since March I started a journal (link is in my signature) if you want to read through my last few months.

I just wanted to tell you have ZERO regrets though and I hope it will be the same with you.

If you have any questions or just want to vent/rant/rave about your journey, please know that we'd be happy to listen

 

[shell025]

Hi,
I just read through your journal. Your so brave!! I couldn't have done all that.

I'm in work at the moment and I just need to go home. I think I will start a journal. It would be good to get my fears out of my head.

Thanks,

Shell

 

[Angeldove]

Aww thanks Shell! I really don't feel that brave... I'm just having a check up on Thursday and I'm already thinking of all the bad news my dentist is going to give me. I do think that now that I've started this journey I will stick to it- I think I'm more scared of my teeth falling out than anything the dentist could do to me (if I survived gum flap surgery, I can do ANYTHING now).

Journaling does help - I reread my past entries and I'm surprised how scared I was over nothing really.