Q
Quixote
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- May 22, 2014
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Posting from the depths of desperation.
My teeth aren't in a very good way. I've got a few fillings, and three molars broken to the gumline. Now, worst of all, I have damage to a front tooth. It isn't at the front, but it looks bad to me when I look at it.
Some of the problems are because of self-neglect. I've struggled with severe mental health problems and trauma from sexual abuse since childhood, and keeping on top of oral hygiene hasn't always been possible, and tbh a lot of the time when it was possible it didn't feel important. I had bulimia for a decade, and my broken molars were originally cracked by being hit in the face.
I desperately want to get it fixed but I am so SCARED.
I feel caught between two fears; the fear of being berated and judged by the dentist, and the feeling of ruining my future and friendships by losing a front tooth.
I know that it doesn't work like that. I know my friends aren't going to hate me or leave me if my front tooth breaks. I know that even if a dentist does tell me off, it won't be telling me off for being mentally ill or abused. I just can't get past that fear.
Also, I just want to get this process started but fucking COVID-19 means I may not get to see a dentist until 2021. I can't wait that long.
I think I can get triaged for the front tooth because it was as a result of impact (dog headbutted me in the face) but I just don't know what will happen.
I just want to know it will be okay and my life is still worth living.
My teeth aren't in a very good way. I've got a few fillings, and three molars broken to the gumline. Now, worst of all, I have damage to a front tooth. It isn't at the front, but it looks bad to me when I look at it.
Some of the problems are because of self-neglect. I've struggled with severe mental health problems and trauma from sexual abuse since childhood, and keeping on top of oral hygiene hasn't always been possible, and tbh a lot of the time when it was possible it didn't feel important. I had bulimia for a decade, and my broken molars were originally cracked by being hit in the face.
I desperately want to get it fixed but I am so SCARED.
I feel caught between two fears; the fear of being berated and judged by the dentist, and the feeling of ruining my future and friendships by losing a front tooth.
I know that it doesn't work like that. I know my friends aren't going to hate me or leave me if my front tooth breaks. I know that even if a dentist does tell me off, it won't be telling me off for being mentally ill or abused. I just can't get past that fear.
Also, I just want to get this process started but fucking COVID-19 means I may not get to see a dentist until 2021. I can't wait that long.
I think I can get triaged for the front tooth because it was as a result of impact (dog headbutted me in the face) but I just don't know what will happen.
I just want to know it will be okay and my life is still worth living.