Constant worry about my teeth

[AJames17]

Hello I’m a male 22, I’ve suffered from mental illness since I was a child as a result of being a young carer for my dad, unfortunately I ignored my dental hygiene growing up and now everyday I feel disgusting and I break down in tears. Last time I went to a dentist was about 2 months ago to get a broken tooth pulled and I felt like the dentist was judging me ( I can’t fully confirm if he was or if it was my anxiety messing with my head). I don’t have a dentist I had go to an emergency dentist after calling 111. I have tried to find a dentist near me that takes on but it seems there’s no where that is taking on patients..
I was hoping someone might have advice on this situation it’s my first time posting so I’m very nervous