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OnceUponATimeIFeltBeautif
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Ok so i shall try to keep this short and as sweet as possible.
The story is this, i used to have very good teeth for most of my life until about 8 years ago, i developed bipolar disorder and agoraphobia and also a drug addiction, because of the depression etc i began to neglect myself. Because of the fear of going outside i didnt see a dentist for a few years, i had extreme problems with staining and with rotten back teeth which i ignored because they weren't visible. ( which i feel incredibly stupid and ashamed of now)
Eventually i had CBT and saw a dentist and ended up having a horrific experience ( which i wont go into in case any one reads this and gets put off seeing one) i suppose it was just bad luck but i basically went into a state of shock after having the work done which made my illness etc worse. After this i became terrified of even brushing my teeth, which of course has sped of their demise. I have a phobia now of people looking into my mouth and of inanimate objects touching my teeth and of course the judgement i will feel when some one finally looks at them.
The upshot is this, my gums have disappeared, there's gaps in the bad ones from the horrific work i had done, the front ones are twisted and disgustingly stained, I'm living in fear that they will fall out any moment, like literally all of them. I can't sleep, eat, have panic attacks constantly etc I can't smile when i look in the mirror or smile when I'm out in public (which i can do now thank god for the cbt), I'm embarrassed when i meet people i haven't seen for awhile and have even stopped talking to all my old friends because i know they will all laughing at me and being cruel behind my back. I try to act like i don't care and when someone passes remarks i retort that they are shallow etc but inside it is killing me.
I feel like i'll never have a relationship again, that i'll never be attractive to any man ever again and I'm only 32, I've even tried to embrace a life to celibacy to try and find a way to deal with what is eventually going to happen to me. I used to be really confident and felt good about my looks and now I feel like I've ruined my life by letting this situation happen.
Im so embarrassed of being judged and berated by the dentist, but now one of the teeth is broken and rotten to the gum, the nerve is exposed and the pain is absolutely incredible, i have a box of pain killers that should last me a few more days and is helping slightly but i literally can barely eat. this problem has taken over my life and the worse it gets, the worse i feel and the harder it is to reach out to someone. my main fear is that its to late to have dentures fitted because i have no gums, I'm going to end up with no teeth at all like one of those gurners from back in the nineties, as its is I'm in worzel gummage territory. Not to be melodramatic but the effect this has had on my self esteem, my ability to get work, have a relationship, make friends, go out, take pics taken etc has made me feel like killing myself, combined with other mental health problems this is really dangerous and if i don't get help i feel like something terrible is going to happen to me and its all my own doing.
can any one give me advice, is it possible to get dentures when you have no gum left?
also I'm pretty broke, I'm sure my family will try to help me when they realise how bad things have got but I'm terrified i wont even be able to afford to fix it.
any advice would be beautifully appreciated.
love and kisses and support to all those in the same boat, i know how awful and soul destroying it is to watch your self esteem life and possibilities seem to be just drifting away from you. lets hope better days are to come x
shell
The story is this, i used to have very good teeth for most of my life until about 8 years ago, i developed bipolar disorder and agoraphobia and also a drug addiction, because of the depression etc i began to neglect myself. Because of the fear of going outside i didnt see a dentist for a few years, i had extreme problems with staining and with rotten back teeth which i ignored because they weren't visible. ( which i feel incredibly stupid and ashamed of now)
Eventually i had CBT and saw a dentist and ended up having a horrific experience ( which i wont go into in case any one reads this and gets put off seeing one) i suppose it was just bad luck but i basically went into a state of shock after having the work done which made my illness etc worse. After this i became terrified of even brushing my teeth, which of course has sped of their demise. I have a phobia now of people looking into my mouth and of inanimate objects touching my teeth and of course the judgement i will feel when some one finally looks at them.
The upshot is this, my gums have disappeared, there's gaps in the bad ones from the horrific work i had done, the front ones are twisted and disgustingly stained, I'm living in fear that they will fall out any moment, like literally all of them. I can't sleep, eat, have panic attacks constantly etc I can't smile when i look in the mirror or smile when I'm out in public (which i can do now thank god for the cbt), I'm embarrassed when i meet people i haven't seen for awhile and have even stopped talking to all my old friends because i know they will all laughing at me and being cruel behind my back. I try to act like i don't care and when someone passes remarks i retort that they are shallow etc but inside it is killing me.
I feel like i'll never have a relationship again, that i'll never be attractive to any man ever again and I'm only 32, I've even tried to embrace a life to celibacy to try and find a way to deal with what is eventually going to happen to me. I used to be really confident and felt good about my looks and now I feel like I've ruined my life by letting this situation happen.
Im so embarrassed of being judged and berated by the dentist, but now one of the teeth is broken and rotten to the gum, the nerve is exposed and the pain is absolutely incredible, i have a box of pain killers that should last me a few more days and is helping slightly but i literally can barely eat. this problem has taken over my life and the worse it gets, the worse i feel and the harder it is to reach out to someone. my main fear is that its to late to have dentures fitted because i have no gums, I'm going to end up with no teeth at all like one of those gurners from back in the nineties, as its is I'm in worzel gummage territory. Not to be melodramatic but the effect this has had on my self esteem, my ability to get work, have a relationship, make friends, go out, take pics taken etc has made me feel like killing myself, combined with other mental health problems this is really dangerous and if i don't get help i feel like something terrible is going to happen to me and its all my own doing.
can any one give me advice, is it possible to get dentures when you have no gum left?
also I'm pretty broke, I'm sure my family will try to help me when they realise how bad things have got but I'm terrified i wont even be able to afford to fix it.
any advice would be beautifully appreciated.
love and kisses and support to all those in the same boat, i know how awful and soul destroying it is to watch your self esteem life and possibilities seem to be just drifting away from you. lets hope better days are to come x
shell