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Stupiddentalfear
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- Jul 6, 2015
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- North Wales, UK
Hello to anyone who is reading,
I just need to vent because I'm not coping again. I'm sure this tooth will be the death of me. I can't cope with the devastation that at some point I will lose my tooth to extraction.
I've done this to myself. The result of ignoring tooth sensitivity, avoiding the dentist due to extreme fear and then the worst part - not seeking dental attention at the onset of toothache which led to abscess whilst pregnant (and then furthermore not seeking help until after baby was born.)
I still have my tooth but it is merely a root canalled shell. But someday the dentist will say it has to go....My life long fear - losing a tooth!! Not the actual procedure; but the empty socket. The feeling of being maimed, of being a lesser person, of being down-right ugly.
To add to this, is the anger. I've always been on top form with my dental hygiene - obsessive even. I don't smoke (never), rarely drink (never been a big drinker), never done drugs, always been cautious about my diet, always chew gum between meals etc. Neither did I give in to pregnancy cravings until my last month before giving birth. (Otherwise, I have four fillings from childhood and nothing else.)
I hate my life, have started regretting my daughter (particularly as she is so naughty - probably because she doesn't understand my mood swings) and really don't know how to live with this anymore. I can't see a future riddled with guilt and hate because of this f***ing tooth!!
Sorry for my rant and thanks to anyone who 'listened'.
I just need to vent because I'm not coping again. I'm sure this tooth will be the death of me. I can't cope with the devastation that at some point I will lose my tooth to extraction.
I've done this to myself. The result of ignoring tooth sensitivity, avoiding the dentist due to extreme fear and then the worst part - not seeking dental attention at the onset of toothache which led to abscess whilst pregnant (and then furthermore not seeking help until after baby was born.)
I still have my tooth but it is merely a root canalled shell. But someday the dentist will say it has to go....My life long fear - losing a tooth!! Not the actual procedure; but the empty socket. The feeling of being maimed, of being a lesser person, of being down-right ugly.
To add to this, is the anger. I've always been on top form with my dental hygiene - obsessive even. I don't smoke (never), rarely drink (never been a big drinker), never done drugs, always been cautious about my diet, always chew gum between meals etc. Neither did I give in to pregnancy cravings until my last month before giving birth. (Otherwise, I have four fillings from childhood and nothing else.)
I hate my life, have started regretting my daughter (particularly as she is so naughty - probably because she doesn't understand my mood swings) and really don't know how to live with this anymore. I can't see a future riddled with guilt and hate because of this f***ing tooth!!
Sorry for my rant and thanks to anyone who 'listened'.