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fearfulteefies
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i feel like such a failure because this afternoon was supposed to be my first dental appointment in 15 years and i called this morning and cancelled. i did reschedule but still feel like i failed somehow. last night i tossed and turned for hours. i maybe got five hours of sleep according to my apple watch. and i know when i start to lose sleep that things aren't going to be good for me anxiety wise. we have workers coming to our house tomorrow and next week to do a bunch of things, and i feel like my anxiety would be more at bay with just one thing at a time to deal with.
so today and tomorrow i'll handle the house stuff. this weekend i will handle resting and prepping for the workers again next week. and next week i'll handle the workers being here all day again. on the 13th, i have an appointment with a dentist that was supposed to be my second opinion and to see which one i liked better - and the appointment i had this afternoon was rescheduled for the 20th of this month. so i am grateful that i didn't outright cancel - i genuinely called in with the notion thati was still going to face my fears head on......just not today.
i just feel horrible because of the wave of relief i had when i called and said, "i am going to have to cancel and reschedule for the next two weeks if possible" - HUGE relief. so i would be lying if i said i couldn't have made it today to the appointment. i could have made it. but i also know how my anxiety is and life happens.
has anyone else gone to face their fears after years and years of neglecting seeing the dentist only to cancel?
so today and tomorrow i'll handle the house stuff. this weekend i will handle resting and prepping for the workers again next week. and next week i'll handle the workers being here all day again. on the 13th, i have an appointment with a dentist that was supposed to be my second opinion and to see which one i liked better - and the appointment i had this afternoon was rescheduled for the 20th of this month. so i am grateful that i didn't outright cancel - i genuinely called in with the notion thati was still going to face my fears head on......just not today.
i just feel horrible because of the wave of relief i had when i called and said, "i am going to have to cancel and reschedule for the next two weeks if possible" - HUGE relief. so i would be lying if i said i couldn't have made it today to the appointment. i could have made it. but i also know how my anxiety is and life happens.
has anyone else gone to face their fears after years and years of neglecting seeing the dentist only to cancel?