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JohnJohn
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- Nov 5, 2020
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Dear friends...
I'm a 36 year old grown up... who had a small surgery as a child (at 5) not related with teeth at all. That surgery went pretty well, zero problems... unfortunatly the entire experience traumatized me for life...
I remember lying on the stretcher... the operation room lights... the mask... the nurse asking me to count to 10... I remember waking up in the middle of the night in the ICU... alone in a freaking dark hospital room, wondering when my parents would come to pick me up... 30 years ago...
This simple experience... ruined my entired medical life... as a child my parents took me to a family friend dentist... he was pretty chill... still my fears were huge... I only remember going there 1 time between 6 and 10 years old...
I took an X-Ray... and they were preparing to pull one tooth for whatever reason... I sat on the chair... he looked at me and say "go home, your tooth as already fall. Nothing to do here." This was around 30 ... years... ago...
My parents never forced me to go to the dentist again... I have no idea why... never asked... I always tried to take care of my teeth, never smoked, not many sweets, sugars, alcohol... but time catch us all... it reality catch us all... no matter what...
All these years without dental care resulted in bunch of problems... some crocked teeth (I have all 4 wisdom teeth... yeh... all 4...) tartar accumulation.. that resulted in gengivitis and also some (I think...) periodontitis...
Last friday... the headaches started... 30 years of dental neglecting hit me like a knife in the head... in the heart... the headaches are 100% related with my teeth problems...
After an awful weekend... I finally gave my first step... and called a dentist... it took me 30 years to schedule a stupid meeting... I had episodes that I started shacking just by dealing the dentist number and would stop...
I'm one of those guys who is afraid of everything related with doctors... but my doomsday as come... tomorrow morning at 10:15... I'm sitting on the chair to do my first clean up/check up in 30 years... I'm terrified about doing another surgery... gum surgery... I'm super ashamed... feeling super guilty that I did this to myself... damn this is hard even to write this stuff...
My personal and work life went from 100% do 30% this week... can't sleep... surviving on ibuprofen... nobody understand this fear, this fobia...
Tomorrow I'm going alone... wish me luck...
I'll post again tomorrow...
I'm a 36 year old grown up... who had a small surgery as a child (at 5) not related with teeth at all. That surgery went pretty well, zero problems... unfortunatly the entire experience traumatized me for life...
I remember lying on the stretcher... the operation room lights... the mask... the nurse asking me to count to 10... I remember waking up in the middle of the night in the ICU... alone in a freaking dark hospital room, wondering when my parents would come to pick me up... 30 years ago...
This simple experience... ruined my entired medical life... as a child my parents took me to a family friend dentist... he was pretty chill... still my fears were huge... I only remember going there 1 time between 6 and 10 years old...
I took an X-Ray... and they were preparing to pull one tooth for whatever reason... I sat on the chair... he looked at me and say "go home, your tooth as already fall. Nothing to do here." This was around 30 ... years... ago...
My parents never forced me to go to the dentist again... I have no idea why... never asked... I always tried to take care of my teeth, never smoked, not many sweets, sugars, alcohol... but time catch us all... it reality catch us all... no matter what...
All these years without dental care resulted in bunch of problems... some crocked teeth (I have all 4 wisdom teeth... yeh... all 4...) tartar accumulation.. that resulted in gengivitis and also some (I think...) periodontitis...
Last friday... the headaches started... 30 years of dental neglecting hit me like a knife in the head... in the heart... the headaches are 100% related with my teeth problems...
After an awful weekend... I finally gave my first step... and called a dentist... it took me 30 years to schedule a stupid meeting... I had episodes that I started shacking just by dealing the dentist number and would stop...
I'm one of those guys who is afraid of everything related with doctors... but my doomsday as come... tomorrow morning at 10:15... I'm sitting on the chair to do my first clean up/check up in 30 years... I'm terrified about doing another surgery... gum surgery... I'm super ashamed... feeling super guilty that I did this to myself... damn this is hard even to write this stuff...
My personal and work life went from 100% do 30% this week... can't sleep... surviving on ibuprofen... nobody understand this fear, this fobia...
Tomorrow I'm going alone... wish me luck...
I'll post again tomorrow...
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