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charlie002009
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This is gonna be a long post. TW: suicide mention
I know for a fact I have lots of rot in my teeth and a terrible abscess in my gums. I neglected care of my teeth for the last 4 years due to a deeply dangerous depression (I am on meds now and doing better) that allowed me to lose care entirely- I pretty much didn't brush my teeth nearly everyday for 4 years. The last time I visited the dentist (4 years ago) I was told I have multiple cavities and possible root canals. The anxiety overwhelmed me (both the shame, fear, and most of all the worry of cost) so I didn't seek treatment. I can see in my mouth that my molars have cracked to the point they are barely there. And one of them is filled with black rot. It is primarily my molars that have rotted but I have one in the front (bottom row) that also appears to be on it's way to rotting away. I had a crown from a root canal that fell out about two years ago and I did nothing about it, and I felt it getting worse and worse. I used to have terrible pain from it, but slowly it began to become unoticable. Recently I could tell that one of those molars chipped away further is now almost gone.
I am only 22 years old and I am TERRIFIED I will need dentures. I do have a decent amount of teeth that seem to be in okay shape, but there are a few that have small holes.
I have done obsessive googling about how teeth rot and abscess can pose life-threatening danger if it spreads.
The thoughts and worries about this have made me feel suicidal at times. The thoughts of the cost, the pain, the amount of time I will spend in a dentist chair and most of all the fear that I could need dentures overwhelms me. My obsessive worry consumes me and makes it hard to even live. I am embarrassed to smile, and my anxiety over it all even makes me not want to date because I am afraid they will notice and be grossed out.
I am so deeply terrified and mortified about going to the dentist with my teeth in this condition. When I think about it too much it makes me want to no longer be alive. I am so ashamed and I hate myself for it.
I don't know what to do. I can't handle this anymore, the fear is eating me alive.
I need help and I need support that this isn't gonna be the end of all my teeth.
I know for a fact I have lots of rot in my teeth and a terrible abscess in my gums. I neglected care of my teeth for the last 4 years due to a deeply dangerous depression (I am on meds now and doing better) that allowed me to lose care entirely- I pretty much didn't brush my teeth nearly everyday for 4 years. The last time I visited the dentist (4 years ago) I was told I have multiple cavities and possible root canals. The anxiety overwhelmed me (both the shame, fear, and most of all the worry of cost) so I didn't seek treatment. I can see in my mouth that my molars have cracked to the point they are barely there. And one of them is filled with black rot. It is primarily my molars that have rotted but I have one in the front (bottom row) that also appears to be on it's way to rotting away. I had a crown from a root canal that fell out about two years ago and I did nothing about it, and I felt it getting worse and worse. I used to have terrible pain from it, but slowly it began to become unoticable. Recently I could tell that one of those molars chipped away further is now almost gone.
I am only 22 years old and I am TERRIFIED I will need dentures. I do have a decent amount of teeth that seem to be in okay shape, but there are a few that have small holes.
I have done obsessive googling about how teeth rot and abscess can pose life-threatening danger if it spreads.
The thoughts and worries about this have made me feel suicidal at times. The thoughts of the cost, the pain, the amount of time I will spend in a dentist chair and most of all the fear that I could need dentures overwhelms me. My obsessive worry consumes me and makes it hard to even live. I am embarrassed to smile, and my anxiety over it all even makes me not want to date because I am afraid they will notice and be grossed out.
I am so deeply terrified and mortified about going to the dentist with my teeth in this condition. When I think about it too much it makes me want to no longer be alive. I am so ashamed and I hate myself for it.
I don't know what to do. I can't handle this anymore, the fear is eating me alive.
I need help and I need support that this isn't gonna be the end of all my teeth.