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Merrowyn
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hi
i'm 34 and my life brutaly changed after an abusive relationship.
To not bring up my past to much i am gonna keep it short. During a fight my boyfriend at the time unlocked both of my jaws. I had to go to the hospital to get the jaws back in place. This was extremely painfull .It took me a long time to be able to speak correctly and eat hard foods. To this day i cannot bite an apple without feeling my jaws block a little. They told me that i should be carefull to avoid a second unlocking.
After that i left that guy but ended up in huge depression with anxiety and fear of being touched.
I had to take a lot of medication and my theeth started to decay, break off and it's just a big ravage in my mouth.
I used to be a model and i hear people say i am beautifull , yet none of them every see me smile.
I'm tired of not smiling or covering up when i speak.
I'm also gluten intolerant and scared of needles. I am deeply ashamed to go to a dentist and just the idea of recieving harsh feedback on myself is so scary that i just never make the apointment... ofcourse financially it's not easy. But i really need to go and i don't know how to overcome this fear. worse case scenario in my mind is my jaws unlocking, or the dentist being way to brutal. It just makes me so sad and it eats away at my self esteem and i wish i had the balls to go... but i don't. It's my dream to overcome this and be able to live with a beautifull smile once more. but i feel stuck
any advice is welcome
ps : i'm from Belgium so my english is not perfect
Merrowyn
i'm 34 and my life brutaly changed after an abusive relationship.
To not bring up my past to much i am gonna keep it short. During a fight my boyfriend at the time unlocked both of my jaws. I had to go to the hospital to get the jaws back in place. This was extremely painfull .It took me a long time to be able to speak correctly and eat hard foods. To this day i cannot bite an apple without feeling my jaws block a little. They told me that i should be carefull to avoid a second unlocking.
After that i left that guy but ended up in huge depression with anxiety and fear of being touched.
I had to take a lot of medication and my theeth started to decay, break off and it's just a big ravage in my mouth.
I used to be a model and i hear people say i am beautifull , yet none of them every see me smile.
I'm tired of not smiling or covering up when i speak.
I'm also gluten intolerant and scared of needles. I am deeply ashamed to go to a dentist and just the idea of recieving harsh feedback on myself is so scary that i just never make the apointment... ofcourse financially it's not easy. But i really need to go and i don't know how to overcome this fear. worse case scenario in my mind is my jaws unlocking, or the dentist being way to brutal. It just makes me so sad and it eats away at my self esteem and i wish i had the balls to go... but i don't. It's my dream to overcome this and be able to live with a beautifull smile once more. but i feel stuck
any advice is welcome
ps : i'm from Belgium so my english is not perfect
Merrowyn