Shaking like a jelly and feeling like a hypocrite!

[kitkat]

You are managing to hang in there though! That is all that we can ask of ourselves sometimes!

 

[shamrockerin]

You are managing to hang in there though! That is all that we can ask of ourselves sometimes!

Hanging on by my fingernails. . .literally

 

[kitkat]

Starting to obsess about my appointment and there is still 4 days to go! But part of me thinks "OMG only 4 days?!?!?!" . It's strange how I want it to speed up and slow down all at once. Re-reading this thread is comforting but it was a lot easier to calmly give advice two weeks ago. I keep getting the feeling that it's going to be "unusual." Like something different is going to happen that is going to catch me by surprise in a negative way . I also almost wasn't able to make it to this appointment and requested to move it up if they get a cancellation so they may call me at any given time during the week to fill a cancellation earlier than scheduled. Why did I do that to myself?! Aldridge, I said that I was about to slip into your shoes and after a couple days I've decided that I don't want your shoes! Take them back!

 

[Aldridge]

Oh kitkat, you give everyone else so much comfort and confidence, you can't have much left for yourself now. I really hope you don't have any unexpected developments unless they are GOOD ones. I know what you mean about wanting things to slow down and yet also speed up, because part of you is screaming, "I'm not ready for this!" and the other part is saying, "I want this to be over and done with!" In 5 days, you will feel so relieved and wonder why you were so worried and there will be and

P.S. I've got my comfy slippers on now...

 

[tabatha7]

Kitkat, this is exactly the way I feel about my upcoming appt. I want it over with but as it gets closer I'm freaking out! And the 1st appt is only for the consultation and xrays. Everyday I'm shaking in my shoes! I have to take xanax some day just to function. I'm praying for your appt to go so well and easy you can come back on here and encourage me. LOL Big hugs to you.

Starting to obsess about my appointment and there is still 4 days to go! But part of me thinks "OMG only 4 days?!?!?!" . It's strange how I want it to speed up and slow down all at once. Re-reading this thread is comforting but it was a lot easier to calmly give advice two weeks ago. I keep getting the feeling that it's going to be "unusual." Like something different is going to happen that is going to catch me by surprise in a negative way . I also almost wasn't able to make it to this appointment and requested to move it up if they get a cancellation so they may call me at any given time during the week to fill a cancellation earlier than scheduled. Why did I do that to myself?! Aldridge, I said that I was about to slip into your shoes and after a couple days I've decided that I don't want your shoes! Take them back!

 

[kitkat]

Kitkat, this is exactly the way I feel about my upcoming appt. I want it over with but as it gets closer I'm freaking out! And the 1st appt is only for the consultation and xrays. Everyday I'm shaking in my shoes! I have to take xanax some day just to function. I'm praying for your appt to go so well and easy you can come back on here and encourage me. LOL Big hugs to you.

I'm trying to keep myself busy for the next couple of days to pass the time. I can't say that I wouldn't entirely mind if they called to fill a cancellation because I really do just want to put it behind me. My appointment is a cleaning, exam, and maybe xrays? Not sure . I don't really expect her to find any issues because I just had issues taken care of (about 4 or 5 months ago) from problems she found at the last 6 month appointment. It seems like on average every other 6 month appointment seems to go smoothly with no need to return for problems, sometimes I get lucky and can make it through 2 or 3 six-month appointments with no issues so the odds are in my favor with this one. I'm just really squeamish when it comes to my gums; I can't stand things scraping around my gums . I can't stand the sound or the sensations or even the thought of it. Cleanings also make me gag with all of the water/paste. The exam and xrays don't actually bother me at all other than I worry about her saying she's found something and that I need to come back for more work. I think for me the gum thing is the worst part because I have had some not-so-gentle hygienists in my past. Lucky for me, my dentist chooses to do all of the scaling herself and I know that she's super gentle so no Russian Roulette with hygienists. I think the rest of her staff are only assistants and just do the xrays/polishing/flossing parts and assist her on the scaling and other procedures.

It's good to have someone to come back and report to. It gives me motivation to set a good example and a sense of accountability. It's funny how most of us stress all appointments (big and small). For phobics, there are no small appointments...just the whole situation is enough to send us over the edge. Aldridge, I cannot wait to trade in these boots that I'm shaking in for some fuzzy slippers!