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hatemyself
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I know that sounds like a melodramatic thing to say over teeth but it's true Sorry I'm just going to vent for a bit...
I've visited this forum for a little while but it always makes me more scared to read the stories and wisdom teeth to be honest. I had a wisdom tooth extraction consultation yesterday and I basically went into shock and couldn't stop crying afterwards because of my dental phobia.
I have depression as well, so as I was walking back from the hospital honestly all I could think about was throwing myself in front of a car or onto the train tracks, or how I'd go to this place I know from my childhood to lie down and die...
I spoke to my GP about my depression a while ago and mentioned my dental phobia and this upcoming surgery and she suggested taking diazepam (valium) which sounded great but the consultant yesterday said that that wasn't allowed.
I have to be sedated for this surgery and that FREAKS ME OUT but I can't have GA (I asked) as that's too risky for a tiny tooth extraction...
Sorry for the rant. I guess I'm looking for some reassurance...
Surgery is in two weeks. I don't know if I'll be able to go through with it. I've been thinking whether it's the humane thing to do, putting myself through this (the consultant even asked if I wanted to go through with it at all if I was this anxious!).
Is it humane to let myself live with these emotions? Is it worth it?
I hate my life sometimes. Sorry for the rant
I've visited this forum for a little while but it always makes me more scared to read the stories and wisdom teeth to be honest. I had a wisdom tooth extraction consultation yesterday and I basically went into shock and couldn't stop crying afterwards because of my dental phobia.
I have depression as well, so as I was walking back from the hospital honestly all I could think about was throwing myself in front of a car or onto the train tracks, or how I'd go to this place I know from my childhood to lie down and die...
I spoke to my GP about my depression a while ago and mentioned my dental phobia and this upcoming surgery and she suggested taking diazepam (valium) which sounded great but the consultant yesterday said that that wasn't allowed.
I have to be sedated for this surgery and that FREAKS ME OUT but I can't have GA (I asked) as that's too risky for a tiny tooth extraction...
Sorry for the rant. I guess I'm looking for some reassurance...
Surgery is in two weeks. I don't know if I'll be able to go through with it. I've been thinking whether it's the humane thing to do, putting myself through this (the consultant even asked if I wanted to go through with it at all if I was this anxious!).
Is it humane to let myself live with these emotions? Is it worth it?
I hate my life sometimes. Sorry for the rant